Deleted member 7448
Name is Abdu, live in Laos, born on 24.08.1992.
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I used to watch videos of people dying on the internet. I watched ISIS executions, mexican cartel lynchings and beheadings. I'm fine with gore, it doesn't move me at all, I don't even blink at them.
But sad stuff... I just can't handle it, at least for the last few years.
Animals hurt or starving or in distress, stories of orphans, thoughts of my parents getting old and dying and being sick. Stuff like this just makes me want to shut my brain down, avoid these thoughts altogether. I don't cry, but this stuff just makes my mind feel ... fragile, it makes me feel really bad.
I guess it's cause I'm so dead inside most of the time. I feel very little emotions in general, I just go through life in a routine with no new things or feelings. So when I experience something sad, or anything at all really, it makes me feel very, very bad.
I've built this little comfort zone recently. My mom, dad, my cat and me, living in this apartment. I don't want it to change, I don't want us to grow old or sick, I don't want things to get better or worse. Don't need riches or fame, I just want this little life I have to stay as it is.
But sad stuff... I just can't handle it, at least for the last few years.
Animals hurt or starving or in distress, stories of orphans, thoughts of my parents getting old and dying and being sick. Stuff like this just makes me want to shut my brain down, avoid these thoughts altogether. I don't cry, but this stuff just makes my mind feel ... fragile, it makes me feel really bad.
I guess it's cause I'm so dead inside most of the time. I feel very little emotions in general, I just go through life in a routine with no new things or feelings. So when I experience something sad, or anything at all really, it makes me feel very, very bad.
I've built this little comfort zone recently. My mom, dad, my cat and me, living in this apartment. I don't want it to change, I don't want us to grow old or sick, I don't want things to get better or worse. Don't need riches or fame, I just want this little life I have to stay as it is.





