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If you have shit-tier genes like myself, there is no way around them. You will suffer from them for your entire lifetime. I have to admit to something before I make my point and tell my story but you will realize that it means nothing once I finish this post. I had some dates in my life. But they ended on 1st or rarely 2nd date, women just saw how ugly I am IRL compared to some pics and decided to break relations with me. But there is one particular date I want to talk about that could have work out well if it wasn't for my shit genes. Tl;dr below.
As you may know or not, I have horrible case of IBS, can't gain weight about 53 kilograms (normally it's 48) and in general have shitty digestive system. So once in 2017 I matched with a girl close to my place and we decided to go out together to a open concert. We decided to spend entire day from almost the morning in the city it took place at. We went there together and it was all good. We walked in a park first and after some hours decided to eat something. We decided to go to a restaurant that is known for pancakes. This is the part where shit started to go down, literally, as you will soon read. I couldn't finish my portion. SOmething was wrong and my body was telling me not to eat it entirely. In the morning I had cramps and couldn't shit out everything I felt I had, but I didn't think that would be a problem. Well, it was. Just as we went out of the restaurant, I told her I have to go to the bathroom and asked to wait for me on a bench for a while. So I went and got a bloody diarhaea that burned my asshole that I barely wiped it was so painful. I got out and we went for very short walk since we had like 1-2 more hours before the concert. But after 15 minutes I had massive cramps in my belly and needed to go to shit again. I told her we have to go back so we went back and again she waited for me on a bench and I did another liquid shit that burned my asshole even further and it was unbearable to wipe my ass. I got out, we decided to go to the concert in the end by foot. But after walking for 15 minutes, massive cramps again. I told her I won't make it there but we were too far from any toilette either way. I hoped to get to a pharmacy but each just closed like 10 minutes ago. I told her I won't make it and won't take it for so long during the concert, that I have to go back home. She went to the train station with me and I found a toilette there. I shat out some more liquid and blood that further burned my asshole and this time, guys, this time I was crying when wiping my ass. It was literally bloody, I had bruises that were bleeding on my asshole and if you never had those, you don't know what pain is because anus is a spot with a lot of nerves. I got out from the toilette and we had to wait for 2,5 hours for the next train back home. After I came back home she was reluctant to speak to me of course. I decided to block her and never talk to her again. That was over.
tl;dr of the above
I had a date during which I had to go to shit because of my IBS 3 times and the girl that I was with had to wait with me for 2,5 hours for a train.
So we didn't get to the concert, she got extremely bored, I was fucking shitting my anus out during the date and most importantly she saw how bad of a genetic blob I am, that I am so weak and unable to function properly. As a matter of fact, I 100% understand her. I wouldn't want to be with someone like me myself. I even respect that how she handled that, she wasn't a bitch about it which you can't take for granted in XXI century. She even got water and some painkillers for me at the train station shop when I was shitting there. And she was cool to talk to and very cute, possibly my biggest loss in my entire life. 100% due to my genes.
The outcome was obvious and the cause of it is even more obvious. When you have shit genes, you will have shit life. Even if she was the one to not be repulsed by my looks, my genes made sure to stop me from being happy. When I write this down I am furious, sad, empty and helpless all at the same time. There is no ascension for truecels as myself. My genes will always make me undesirable, even if it's not just by looks, it's gonna be some other way. This is why I want to beat up every IT fucker any every normoid who say I just have to work on myself, when I always get a reality check like that (in Mortal Kombat of course).
As you may know or not, I have horrible case of IBS, can't gain weight about 53 kilograms (normally it's 48) and in general have shitty digestive system. So once in 2017 I matched with a girl close to my place and we decided to go out together to a open concert. We decided to spend entire day from almost the morning in the city it took place at. We went there together and it was all good. We walked in a park first and after some hours decided to eat something. We decided to go to a restaurant that is known for pancakes. This is the part where shit started to go down, literally, as you will soon read. I couldn't finish my portion. SOmething was wrong and my body was telling me not to eat it entirely. In the morning I had cramps and couldn't shit out everything I felt I had, but I didn't think that would be a problem. Well, it was. Just as we went out of the restaurant, I told her I have to go to the bathroom and asked to wait for me on a bench for a while. So I went and got a bloody diarhaea that burned my asshole that I barely wiped it was so painful. I got out and we went for very short walk since we had like 1-2 more hours before the concert. But after 15 minutes I had massive cramps in my belly and needed to go to shit again. I told her we have to go back so we went back and again she waited for me on a bench and I did another liquid shit that burned my asshole even further and it was unbearable to wipe my ass. I got out, we decided to go to the concert in the end by foot. But after walking for 15 minutes, massive cramps again. I told her I won't make it there but we were too far from any toilette either way. I hoped to get to a pharmacy but each just closed like 10 minutes ago. I told her I won't make it and won't take it for so long during the concert, that I have to go back home. She went to the train station with me and I found a toilette there. I shat out some more liquid and blood that further burned my asshole and this time, guys, this time I was crying when wiping my ass. It was literally bloody, I had bruises that were bleeding on my asshole and if you never had those, you don't know what pain is because anus is a spot with a lot of nerves. I got out from the toilette and we had to wait for 2,5 hours for the next train back home. After I came back home she was reluctant to speak to me of course. I decided to block her and never talk to her again. That was over.
tl;dr of the above
I had a date during which I had to go to shit because of my IBS 3 times and the girl that I was with had to wait with me for 2,5 hours for a train.
So we didn't get to the concert, she got extremely bored, I was fucking shitting my anus out during the date and most importantly she saw how bad of a genetic blob I am, that I am so weak and unable to function properly. As a matter of fact, I 100% understand her. I wouldn't want to be with someone like me myself. I even respect that how she handled that, she wasn't a bitch about it which you can't take for granted in XXI century. She even got water and some painkillers for me at the train station shop when I was shitting there. And she was cool to talk to and very cute, possibly my biggest loss in my entire life. 100% due to my genes.
The outcome was obvious and the cause of it is even more obvious. When you have shit genes, you will have shit life. Even if she was the one to not be repulsed by my looks, my genes made sure to stop me from being happy. When I write this down I am furious, sad, empty and helpless all at the same time. There is no ascension for truecels as myself. My genes will always make me undesirable, even if it's not just by looks, it's gonna be some other way. This is why I want to beat up every IT fucker any every normoid who say I just have to work on myself, when I always get a reality check like that (in Mortal Kombat of course).
