I can say there's actually no point. I'm at a stage where I'm basically just extending a utterly hopeless situation. I've been effectively weeded out of the gene pool. There's nothing to do and no one to cry to. No one cares, no one understands. I don't have it that bad but I also have it very bad, I'm in a spot where no one can care and no one can feel bad. It's very lonely at the end of the day. I'm too smart and too dumb. I'm just not enough in every way feasible. I'm actually amazing but that's not enough because it's only visible internally. It hides under an ugly exterior. Even though some foids do want me, I was seemingly born unable to even care. I'm so jaded that I perceive the love of foids to have no meaning anyways. In that sense, I'm a fakecel. But if I'm unable to feel joy then it never started just in a different way. I'm sad to say that it's very confusing to live this way and it makes no sense. I'm not what they call depressed, I'm something else. I'm one who has fully realized everyone is truly against me and I live in an evil world, where I am labeled the crazy one.