Going to be 30 very soon.
It's Over How many people here are 20+ Kissless virgins?
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It feels like nothing. When you reach 20 or so every year feels the same and time flies. I don't have any specific memories from ages 18-24. It all feels like it happened in less than a year.
You're an aspie virgin loser one year, and the next, and the next and it just goes on and on and before you know it you're 25-30 and you still feel like a teenager mentally. You're basically reliving the same day over and over again. You're sitting at your computer doing the same things you've been doing for over a decade.
It's all downhill after that. Years go by exceptionally fast and one day you realize you're old. Normies get a mid-life crisis, but it hits you much harder than them. You eventually start feeling pain and you maybe get sick and you suffer for another couple of decades until you die alone in your apartment.
You're an aspie virgin loser one year, and the next, and the next and it just goes on and on and before you know it you're 25-30 and you still feel like a teenager mentally. You're basically reliving the same day over and over again. You're sitting at your computer doing the same things you've been doing for over a decade.
It's all downhill after that. Years go by exceptionally fast and one day you realize you're old. Normies get a mid-life crisis, but it hits you much harder than them. You eventually start feeling pain and you maybe get sick and you suffer for another couple of decades until you die alone in your apartment.
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Reporting in.
How does it feel? Like you've been touched by the void. You feel nothing anymore.
Wow so this place isn't composed entirely by high school teenagers.
Makes me feel a bit better about myself.
Makes me feel a bit better about myself.
Damn. How is your day to day life?
I am 21 and khhv myself.
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i am 17 year old KHHV
25 and the only thing I’ve kissed or touched is my pillow.
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Work, lift, vidya, fap when I meed to get it over with, and occasionally hang out with close friends.
Seeing chads and stacies laughing, enjoying themselves and loving life stopped phasing me many, many years ago. I've long since accepted my reality and realized that every conscious entity's conscious experience truly is unique and not replicable.
Not everyone is meant for greatness, and some people are meant for some things.
I was meant to live a solitary life, alone. I search for truths (note: not personal meaning for my life) when I'm not superficially coping. I was born with a big brain, but an ugly face.
Am I merely the product of some stochastic evolutionary process, or is there some important reason that this particular recombination of DNA has been made manifest in this reality? The cope of grandiosity is a dangerous delusion, and thankfully I've grown out of it. But it was the one thing keeping me from roping for the longest time at one point.
25 virgin
Turning 20 thursday.
A regular pillow or a Daki? That makes a LOT of difference.
Daki of course. I use the regular pillow for crying.
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It's truly unfortunate sexual selection is based on evolutionary processes that lag behind reality severely and operate under their own mantra.
Turning 20 in a few months. Like most people on here, I've missed out on crucial developmental milestones which are the foundation for a happy life. I wasn't a total loner, I had a few friends but I know that I will never be seen as normal. Everyone will think that I'm a bit strange. As it gets older I know it will get worse and soon I will have to start wageslaving.
The worst part about being an incel is that you are expected to put in the same amount of work and effort as everyone else around you but with no reward. Your reward is simply to survive another day, to wake up and repeat the same tired routine for as long as you live. If you took all of the normie's copes away (relationships, friends, support) then it wouldn't be hard to imagine a lot of them committing suicide on the spot.
The worst part about being an incel is that you are expected to put in the same amount of work and effort as everyone else around you but with no reward. Your reward is simply to survive another day, to wake up and repeat the same tired routine for as long as you live. If you took all of the normie's copes away (relationships, friends, support) then it wouldn't be hard to imagine a lot of them committing suicide on the spot.
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It's one of the reasons why I'm convinced that consciousness is some external force, some universal constant of reality that is expressed in biology, rather than cosmology.
How can evolution produce consciousness to the point where its own process of getting there lags behind the thing it produces? It makes no Goddamn sense. We're at a point in our evolutionary journey where our consciousness has produced an awareness of our own biological and evolutionary pitfalls, such as the civilization-ending phenomenon of female hypergamy.
According to our standard evolutionary understanding and models, an organism evolves an awareness that helps it maximize its own survival. We understand and interpret this awareness as the organism's instinct. By that paradigm, our greater awareness of, well, a lot of fucking things (including the outer edges of the universe and black holes) serve no evolutionary purpose (for survival). So why the FUCK is it there?
It has to be something outside of evolutionary processes. If you still want to work within the evolutionary framework, then you have to yield to the fact that our current level of consciousness (awareness + intelligence) is some epiphenomenal byproduct, some unforeseeable accident of the process of evolution itself, but not as a direct result of it.
I'm not entirely satisfied with this, personally. But hey, who gives a shit, right?
So you’ve basically achieved that zen type shit? You’ve minimized suffering despite missing out on the full human experience?
The hardest part is that I’m still expected to work and try at things. I don’t get to just LDAR and meditate on a mountain temple in the clouds or anything. My parents know I’m a sad loner yet they act like I’m completely normal and of course they’re delusion as fuck. they insist that I’m good looking. Pisses me off how retarded they are.
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I have not achieved Zen in the traditional, spiritual and mystic sense. There was never a strive to achieve Zen, nor it was ever some abstract goal. What may appear as such are merely the positive side effects of being black pilled.
The black pill is a kind of alternative to Zen (a dark side), but you could classify it as carefully tempered chaos - a hurricane where you're in the eye of it and anything that takes you off center will tear you apart (drive you to rope). I would say that the black pill is not even a legitimate path to true Zen.
However, being black pilled in and of itself corrupts your path to Zen. Those two states of mind cannot coexist. The black pill is something that you simply cannot unlearn, especially if you've experienced black pills as part of the traditional set of experiences (talking with girls, making friends, getting a job etc.).
As far as the minimization of suffering goes, I honestly think I lucked out pretty hard there. I was simply fortunate enough to have the temperament and constitution to "survive" the suffering you would typically experience during the process of being black pilled, as the black pill formalizes the experiences of your suffering in a cavalier and ruthless way (it's over, it never began, cope or rope) and does not provide any comfort as a matter of course. You simply face the brutally harsh truths and swallow the painful black pills. Whether you suffer through that or not is an entirely personalized and unique experience.
Fundamentally, the black pill makes no apologies and does nothing of its own accord to alleviate your pain and suffering. It does not care if you rope, go ER, or fap and play video games all day. It offers no solution and no recourse. All it cares about it is making you aware of reality - your reality, and the greater reality.
We work because we have to. Even if you go NEET and fap all day to loli porn, you will want to occupy your mind with something rote and seemingly meaningful to pass the time and give you a sense of purpose in a way that prevents you from going insane.
Your parents mean well. They truly love you and want the best for you. Believe that, because it is absolutely true (evil, psychopathic parents excepted).
They're not trolling you by realizing it's already over and giving you false hope. You are a beacon of faith for them. They want to believe in their own son. They want to believe that he's gonna make it brah.
YOU are your parents' cope. Always remember that.
21 khhv
23 KHV here.
I'm a 20 year old touchless virgin.
How does it feel? Every day I go to sleep hoping to never wake up.
Every moment feels like death to me thinking about what Chads and holes must be doing.
How does it feel? Every day I go to sleep hoping to never wake up.
Every moment feels like death to me thinking about what Chads and holes must be doing.
Unless a miracle happens in 5 months. Me
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