Too many reasons. Depressed cause I'm ill. Cause I'm getting old, doing a job a hate, watching my body decay, being alone being poor being homeless not having the money to do the things I want in life. Or have the house and life I want. No partner to share time with no partner to experience disgraceful sexual acts with losing hope. Being scared, having no friends or family round me. My situation.. and because of how bad that wretched opposite sx treated me and made me feel about my self..