I kept putting in 100% effort and getting smashed back down again. I did all of the maxxing, and kept getting put down in my place. The last time you take the black pill is always the most brutal. I finally realised it was completely over when I stopped getting messages back from landwhales when I included on the first few lines of all of my dating profiles I was disabled. Not even landwhales want a disabled boyfriend. Disability means no money, and since I don't have looks, those morbidly obese bitches wouldn't even talk to me. I got tired of telling landwhales that I was disabled and then they would ghost me. I got so fucking tired of that. And I just hate the idea that I am 130 lbs and I have to date foids who are 100 and 200 LBS heavier than I am? I know, volcel if I won't. I was ready and willing to take on a woman twice my body mass, but they didn't even want me. Then I decided to start saving my money for the downpayment on a doll. I deleted every single one of my dating and social media profiles. I became a recluse. But you know what? It was very liberating. Finally I could focus my mind on other things besides myself and how to improve myself to get foids. My ego decreased by 100% and my intelligence rapidly increased after the final black pill. When I wasnt in severe pain I studied the history topics I wanted to study on my own leisure. I watched movies. I let my hair and my beard grow out. Just really let myself go and it felt good. You know what really pisses me off though? Why is it that as men, we are always told by normies to -better ourselves- when we are having problems with dating.
THEY NEVER TELL FOID THAT. THEY TELL HER THAT SHE JUST NEEDS TO WAIT IT OUT, THAT THE RIGHT ONE WILL COME ALONG SOME DAY, THAT THE TIMING WASNT RIGHT, THAT SHE IS BEAUTIFUL AND PERFECT IN EVERY SINGLE POSSIBLE WAY AND SOME DAY SHE WILL MEET THE ONE. IT IS A BLUE PILL SIN TO TELL A FOID THAT PERHAPS SHE IS DOING SOMETHING WRONG, THAT SHE NEEDS TO LOSE WEIGHT, THAT SHE NEEDS TO WORK ON HER APPEARANCE. NORMIES WASTE NO TIME AT ALL TELLING INCEL MEN THAT THERE IS SOMETHING WRONG WITH THE WAY THEY LOOK, THEIR PERSONALITY, THEIR INTERESTS, THEIR CAREER CHOICE, AND THEY NEED TO SOMEHOW -IMPROVE- THIS, AND THE FOID WILL COME LATER.
Fuck that! Chad never has to do any of that. I am the way I am, and I am who I am. I am not going to become something I am not to attain female attention, and if I did, it would be just to betabucks. I'd rather go my own way, alone, than become a betabucks.
Yeah I tried. If you haven't, you should too, you might escape inceldom. Volcel if you never tried. If you never try, you'll never know. But I would say never become something you aren't, and never study something, and work, just to get foid. Chad can be a deadbeat gang member and litrally be sitting in jail, and still get foids. Just be true to yourself, incel.