Venting How is trauma affecting you ?

[Chud Norris72]

Do you also get regular flashbacks of bullying from your childhood ? During the past 2 years or so I tend to get revengeful urges towards those individuals now that their grownup . They are all gonna be successful sexhavers no matter what, so in theory I could only harden their lifes by a little in World of Warcraft ofc. Since my teens and early adulthood the ways of bullying have changed a little. Nowdays I just get taken advantage of by normfags or also tallfaggots tend to not respect my personal space, but the early life trauma is ingrained in my memory the most.

 

[Poopless One]

I can barely even function normally in adulthood.

That's how bad it was.

 

[Chud Norris72]

I can barely even function normally in adulthood.

That's how bad it was.

same

 

[anon65]

I tried to memory-hole most of it, but events will come back into my mind randomly. Also super embarrassing moments of course.

 

[ToBurble&Pine]

I can barely even function normally in adulthood.

 

[Sir Silentium]

Yes, I have lots of trauma from past experiences. And some that are still occurring.

As a result of a few of these:

My Worst Interactions (physical)

At the end of last year, I had a word document at 15 pages (around 6000 words) from every negative interaction I had since I was around 16/17 years old. When transferring computers I lost the document and was never able to publish the final product onto .is. But I can still recall some of the...

incels.is

 

[Fo4idhater]

I'm socially awkard like I can't even look people in the eye and I get anxious as fuck in crowded places

 

[tired as fuck]

0 self-esteem or sense of worth, extreme mood swings, distrust in everyone, unable to love. I'd say these are the most evident effects. Many memories get memory-holed but the consequences are inescapable.

 

[Extern]

I can barely even function normally in adulthood.

 

[Ijustwantbehappy]

Do you also get regular flashbacks of bullying from your childhood ? During the past 2 years or so I tend to get revengeful urges towards those individuals now that their grownup . They are all gonna be successful sexhavers no matter what, so in theory I could only harden their lifes by a little in World of Warcraft ofc. Since my teens and early adulthood the ways of bullying have changed a little. Nowdays I just get taken advantage of by normfags or also tallfaggots tend to not respect my personal space, but the early life trauma is ingrained in my memory the most.

Every time I go to talk to someone, I hold back because of the mean comments other people used to make about my appearance when I was a kid. It really fucks with my head and I hate it

 

[ConvertedAryanSpic]

0 self-esteem or sense of worth, extreme mood swings, distrust in everyone, unable to love. I'd say these are the most evident effects. Many memories get memory-holed but the consequences are inescapable.

Same scenario

 

[Violet loner]

Sometimes i get into extreme mental pain, but about the past i kinda trying to forget. And i forgot about it in some part

 

[DeformedDysgenicCel]

Do you also get regular flashbacks of bullying from your childhood ? During the past 2 years or so I tend to get revengeful urges towards those individuals now that their grownup . They are all gonna be successful sexhavers no matter what, so in theory I could only harden their lifes by a little in World of Warcraft ofc. Since my teens and early adulthood the ways of bullying have changed a little. Nowdays I just get taken advantage of by normfags or also tallfaggots tend to not respect my personal space, but the early life trauma is ingrained in my memory the most.

Yes. Always. The flashbacks of brutal bullying won't ever disappear in my mind.

 

[tired as fuck]

Every time I go to talk to someone, I hold back because of the mean comments other people used to make about my appearance when I was a kid. It really fucks with my head and I hate it

cant control these things, they were hammered into your head and you can't extract them to toss em away. Sad. Society is just a big trauma inducing scum

 

[nazianime]

Can’t trust anyone, no self esteem, lethargic, anxiety going outside for basic supplies, can’t dine in at restaurants. Those are just a couple of them

 

[Freixel]

A lot of what has been said in this thread

 

[cymbeline]

get 3 hours of sleep every day so you can get bullied all day every day and taught not to think during puberty and eat only instant noodles and ritalin

 

[Chud Norris72]

get 3 hours of sleep every day so you can get bullied all day every day and taught not to think during puberty and eat only instant noodles and ritalin

That's inhumane brocel