Sorry for long read, i understand if you dont have the time.
(apologies for spelling and format issues, i never learnt how to write in school.)
So it began when i first moved to this new town, i had been made homeless when i was a teenager by my single parent who wanted nothing to do with me, after years of being bullied and beaten up, humiliated and being alone every day, (since i was a child) i could take it no longer, after numerious failed suicide attempts i was allowed to stay with some relatives who were kind enough to take me in. i litterally stayed in my room for the next 5 years playing an MMO. it was my only escape.
i stayed in this room because every time i went outside i would be assaulted, or insulted/harrassed or treated like shit.
we are talking things being thrown at me, spat on, slapped. and all sorts of insults and horrible things said to and about me. this would happen wherever i go since i was a child.
so i moved to this new town in hopes of finaly changing myself and being happy. i had plans to make friends and finaly catch up on all the sex and relationships and things i had missed out on my whole life.
(i had also been lifting wieghts and training on a punching bag for the last few years and training myself so that people couldn't hurt me anymore, even bought new clothes and tried to make myself look as good as possible.)
during this time i had been researching PUA tacticts and actually thought it was legit. i believed the lie that you could approach many women and eventually you would find a date or a sexual partner, so stupid hopeful me went out into the world hoping to finaly become normal and happy.
oh was i such an idiot.
so after asking out countless girls and trying every trick in the book for a few months (and of course getting no success),i found out through an acquaintance that there had been long posts about me on facebook by lots of difference people. talking about me and saying horrible things.
there was a new topic every week about "the wierd creepy guy". i was being accused of lots of stuff that actually wasnt me, such as things as "scaring and being creepy to women", "being suspicious", "ugly guy who walks funny" and lots of other horrible things. during this time some girls were also accusing me of raping them, and i was being accused of sending nudes to an underage girl. (i didn't learn of this until later.). i even had a whole printout pages of all the horrible things said about me by someone from facebook and they sent it to me. but i never looked because i could not bear it any longer. i was filled with so much sadness from being alone for so long and being treated horrible by everyone.
so it all happens one night when i am approached by a 3 girls. they talk with me and actually seem interested in who i am and what i have to say, they actually flirt back with me after i am using this PUA bullshit that i learned from the internet and i think to myself "holy shit, this actually works!".
i say i have to go and make sure to get their number before i do. i find out their age and name and number and am on my way. the girl who wanted to give me her number tells me she is 18.
so i text her that night and the next day and say i would like to hang out with her, (as this pua stuff says you should do). i call her and have a quick chat and she says to come meet her at the local park to hangout for awhile. i think "great!, this is my chance to make some friends and maybe even see a girl!". i am very excited,
i have a few drinks before i go because i am very nervous since this is the first time i have ever done anything like this. i have never hung out with anyone since i am such a loser. <- no exaggeration.
so i get their and send her a text to ask where she is and where her friends are. i keep recieving texts back just telling me to wait there and she will be there soon.
i think nothing of this but i did think it was a little strange. anyway, after waiting some more i think to myself "damn, once again i have been lied to and humiliated" and think "fuck that, i will call her". so i do. i ask her "why she is taking so long and what is the problem?". she asks me what i find attractive about her and than says she is actually 14. i get angry at this and ask why she is lying to me about her age. but by that it was too late.
i get approached by some guys, about 10 of them or so. who than accuse me of being a disgusting pedophile rapist. and ask me if it is acceptable to be talking to 14 year old girls like this. i keep trying to explain to them what has happened but of course they dont listen. so after being insulted and accosted by a growing gang of people accusing me of being a pedophile they say i should come with them so we can sort it out. (at this point there the gang was growing and there was about 20 people vs me, NO FUCKING JOKE). so they take me to an alleyway and pull out some knives and try to attack me and asked me to take my clothes off. lucky for me i have done my training. and as drunk as i was no matter what they tried, they could not do anything to me (but i did cut my hand when i grabbed the knife when he tried to stab me). i even gave one of them a fucked up nose when i punched him in the face. i than ran around the town while being chased by this growing number of people shouting at me that i am a pedophile, allerting the attention of more people of course. i try to get home a few times, but each time more and more people are stopping me and chasing me around.
i am finally able to call the police and tell them what has happened. i am taken to hospital and treated and than make my way back home.
of course i find out the next day that parts of it have been recorded via phones, (of course its only the parts that make me look bad). and has been spread all over facebook. these videos gain tens of thousands of views and from that point i was well and trull fucked. (even more than before!).
instead of now just being called ugly and harrassed in the streets and rumors spread about me on facebook. i now had gangs of people outside my flat throwing stuff at my windows and shouting pedophile and child rapist every night. every time i went out people called me pedophile and tried to take pictures and laugh at me.
i was being stalked and insulted and accosted even more than before and it was getting alot more worse. i even had a conspiracy against me. (when i went to a shop to get some stuff, they would call up people while i was busy and than there would be a gang on the streets on the way home to call me pedophile and let everyone know that i was this. of course i cant really fight against this because i am by myself and have no one who would back me up.
so now to this day right now i still get called pedophile and harrassed. and people were outside my flat saying they would kill me and calling me pedophile and saying "we'll get him" "i will fuck you up" "i will fucking kill you" "child molester". and this was on christmas day,
i have never been in trouble with the law and have no criminal record.
PUA has ruined my life even more than it already was ruined for the simple fact of being an ugly and short male.
all i wanted was to be normal and enjoy life and party like i saw everyone els doing while i rotted alone in my room playing a game that doesn't exist anymore.
and due to my efforts to improve and be happy and being told "whats the worst that can heppen bro?". due to my efforts to get in shape and try to look good and attract women. my life is now ruined even more than it already was. i have only ever known sadness, loneliness and being hurt over and over.
with no family and no friends to ever have my back. just me alone.
thank you for reading this if you did and sorry it was so long.
there really is no way out for us incels.
trying to break free will only result in pain and sadness and cruelty from the world.
i have now accepted my fate. i am 100% certain the only way out is suicide.
(apologies for spelling and format issues, i never learnt how to write in school.)
So it began when i first moved to this new town, i had been made homeless when i was a teenager by my single parent who wanted nothing to do with me, after years of being bullied and beaten up, humiliated and being alone every day, (since i was a child) i could take it no longer, after numerious failed suicide attempts i was allowed to stay with some relatives who were kind enough to take me in. i litterally stayed in my room for the next 5 years playing an MMO. it was my only escape.
i stayed in this room because every time i went outside i would be assaulted, or insulted/harrassed or treated like shit.
we are talking things being thrown at me, spat on, slapped. and all sorts of insults and horrible things said to and about me. this would happen wherever i go since i was a child.
so i moved to this new town in hopes of finaly changing myself and being happy. i had plans to make friends and finaly catch up on all the sex and relationships and things i had missed out on my whole life.
(i had also been lifting wieghts and training on a punching bag for the last few years and training myself so that people couldn't hurt me anymore, even bought new clothes and tried to make myself look as good as possible.)
during this time i had been researching PUA tacticts and actually thought it was legit. i believed the lie that you could approach many women and eventually you would find a date or a sexual partner, so stupid hopeful me went out into the world hoping to finaly become normal and happy.
oh was i such an idiot.
so after asking out countless girls and trying every trick in the book for a few months (and of course getting no success),i found out through an acquaintance that there had been long posts about me on facebook by lots of difference people. talking about me and saying horrible things.
there was a new topic every week about "the wierd creepy guy". i was being accused of lots of stuff that actually wasnt me, such as things as "scaring and being creepy to women", "being suspicious", "ugly guy who walks funny" and lots of other horrible things. during this time some girls were also accusing me of raping them, and i was being accused of sending nudes to an underage girl. (i didn't learn of this until later.). i even had a whole printout pages of all the horrible things said about me by someone from facebook and they sent it to me. but i never looked because i could not bear it any longer. i was filled with so much sadness from being alone for so long and being treated horrible by everyone.
so it all happens one night when i am approached by a 3 girls. they talk with me and actually seem interested in who i am and what i have to say, they actually flirt back with me after i am using this PUA bullshit that i learned from the internet and i think to myself "holy shit, this actually works!".
i say i have to go and make sure to get their number before i do. i find out their age and name and number and am on my way. the girl who wanted to give me her number tells me she is 18.
so i text her that night and the next day and say i would like to hang out with her, (as this pua stuff says you should do). i call her and have a quick chat and she says to come meet her at the local park to hangout for awhile. i think "great!, this is my chance to make some friends and maybe even see a girl!". i am very excited,
i have a few drinks before i go because i am very nervous since this is the first time i have ever done anything like this. i have never hung out with anyone since i am such a loser. <- no exaggeration.
so i get their and send her a text to ask where she is and where her friends are. i keep recieving texts back just telling me to wait there and she will be there soon.
i think nothing of this but i did think it was a little strange. anyway, after waiting some more i think to myself "damn, once again i have been lied to and humiliated" and think "fuck that, i will call her". so i do. i ask her "why she is taking so long and what is the problem?". she asks me what i find attractive about her and than says she is actually 14. i get angry at this and ask why she is lying to me about her age. but by that it was too late.
i get approached by some guys, about 10 of them or so. who than accuse me of being a disgusting pedophile rapist. and ask me if it is acceptable to be talking to 14 year old girls like this. i keep trying to explain to them what has happened but of course they dont listen. so after being insulted and accosted by a growing gang of people accusing me of being a pedophile they say i should come with them so we can sort it out. (at this point there the gang was growing and there was about 20 people vs me, NO FUCKING JOKE). so they take me to an alleyway and pull out some knives and try to attack me and asked me to take my clothes off. lucky for me i have done my training. and as drunk as i was no matter what they tried, they could not do anything to me (but i did cut my hand when i grabbed the knife when he tried to stab me). i even gave one of them a fucked up nose when i punched him in the face. i than ran around the town while being chased by this growing number of people shouting at me that i am a pedophile, allerting the attention of more people of course. i try to get home a few times, but each time more and more people are stopping me and chasing me around.
i am finally able to call the police and tell them what has happened. i am taken to hospital and treated and than make my way back home.
of course i find out the next day that parts of it have been recorded via phones, (of course its only the parts that make me look bad). and has been spread all over facebook. these videos gain tens of thousands of views and from that point i was well and trull fucked. (even more than before!).
instead of now just being called ugly and harrassed in the streets and rumors spread about me on facebook. i now had gangs of people outside my flat throwing stuff at my windows and shouting pedophile and child rapist every night. every time i went out people called me pedophile and tried to take pictures and laugh at me.
i was being stalked and insulted and accosted even more than before and it was getting alot more worse. i even had a conspiracy against me. (when i went to a shop to get some stuff, they would call up people while i was busy and than there would be a gang on the streets on the way home to call me pedophile and let everyone know that i was this. of course i cant really fight against this because i am by myself and have no one who would back me up.
so now to this day right now i still get called pedophile and harrassed. and people were outside my flat saying they would kill me and calling me pedophile and saying "we'll get him" "i will fuck you up" "i will fucking kill you" "child molester". and this was on christmas day,
i have never been in trouble with the law and have no criminal record.
PUA has ruined my life even more than it already was ruined for the simple fact of being an ugly and short male.
all i wanted was to be normal and enjoy life and party like i saw everyone els doing while i rotted alone in my room playing a game that doesn't exist anymore.
and due to my efforts to improve and be happy and being told "whats the worst that can heppen bro?". due to my efforts to get in shape and try to look good and attract women. my life is now ruined even more than it already was. i have only ever known sadness, loneliness and being hurt over and over.
with no family and no friends to ever have my back. just me alone.
thank you for reading this if you did and sorry it was so long.
there really is no way out for us incels.
trying to break free will only result in pain and sadness and cruelty from the world.
i have now accepted my fate. i am 100% certain the only way out is suicide.
