I once went with an escort to try and finally feel it for the first time and not to necessarily feel pleasure, TLDR it was lame
I was shocked up by the whole situation, first because I got naked in front of a person for the first time, and second because she got too and found it okay, implying her experience. She even joked about it. I got on the bed but I couldn't get hard by any means, the pressure of the whole situation was to much for me to get aroused or even have sexual thoughts.
I was laying like a hard plank on the bed barely making a movement, she used her filthy prostitute mouth to suck my dick and I just felt it geting sucked by a warm hole, I felt her tongue and it actually felt good, but the pressure was too much for me to focus on that so it was really to get me aroused.
Then she mounted on me and we started having sex with her at the top going up and down and etcetera, I focusing on keeping hard through all this time and I felt a lot of anxiety on the pressure, this made me turn off and she realized that and in the end I felt zero pleasure because I was not focusing on the sex itself and also because the situation of enough desesperation to resort on a scort to have sex also didn't allign with my moral code, so that was too one more turn-off for me
Things are pretty tough for my kind of people
Funny things is that on the other side, foids treat this activity like a plaything and even laugh during the proccess, showing that we are really on the losers side