when i started realising how involuntary celibate i was my thoughts turned into a cesspool of self-hatred and dehumanisation, still is to this day
I debate myself
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when i started realising how involuntary celibate i was my thoughts turned into anime and music cope.
I do that sometimes
I schizomaxx
Don't hate yourself, blame the world, soyciety. We were born in a cursed time, just hope to live enough to see women losing their rights.
i tried that but i cant give myself psychosis no matter how hard i try
Alot of internal conflict
i hope to live long enough to see the extinction of the human race
you’re lucky, those are insufficient copes for me the thoughts still won’t escape, it hassss to be coke or pills or else it don’t stop
Sometimes in German, sometimes in Englisch and also in Russian.
I switch. I am lonely and bored, so I make up all kinds of scenarios. It can go on for hours.
It's fun.
I switch. I am lonely and bored, so I make up all kinds of scenarios. It can go on for hours.
It's fun.
I talk and some of the voices in my head answer
With respect and kindness.
teach me dawg
I am a non nt chronic daydreamer so a lot of my thoughts haven’t changed—my self talk has been more “angry” since taking the BP though.
Do unto yourself,teach me dawg
As you would have done to yourself.
The golden rule,
whats the “BP”
It’s as if me, a singular entity, has multiple voices going on inside my head at once arguing with one another about the best decision for “me”
im not gooning enough damn
Blackpill
I try not to.
I don't anymore.
I dont
my head is a regular conflict
I sometimes call myself a genetic defect, a mongo (a derogatory German term for ugly, dumb, disabled people), a freak, etc. I say that I really belong in an institution run by that mysterious Nazi doctor, Dr. Mengele.
Strangely, I don't actually hate myself or feel the need to criticise myself, my goal is not to hold myself in comparison to the paradigm of a chad (all that separates me from a chad is genetic appearance and height which you don't have any control over) , it's to maximise pleasure and do whatever it takes to benefit myself.
There's no need to hate yourself when the world already hates you simply for existing.
i used to be a real dick to myself but have learned its better to be nicer to yourself...life is already hard enough
ohh damn thx, i been lurking this forum too long without knowing what any that shi even meant
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yeah im still in the being a dick phase unfortunately
Same but I feel like I’m just brutally honest with myself, so there’s no hard feelings.
we have the term mongo in Ireland as well, i say that god condemned me from the moment i was born, tried to kill me in my mothers womb with MAS, then he killed my mother when that wasn’t enough, and then he made me get bullied, assaulted, and have every foid repulsed by me
I hate myself and i think it should be legal to kill me
My nigga mengele dindu nuffin
I try to separate my value/worth with my involuntary celibacy. Whilst I still want to have the things I can't have pertaining to relationships and sex etc. I've come to realise over the years that that's simply not attainable for me and that there are other things in my life that I can cope with. I also try to busy my thoughts more with things that are in my control and that do make me feel more valuable. it sounds cucked but I genuinely feel better because of it.
I don't know if it was God or rather the devil. Hardly anyone thinks about him. Yet he is the one who is supposedly responsible for disease, epidemics, and plague. And it's the godlessness of humanity.
If I understand correctly.
both of them, on a campaign to fuck my life to pieces
Grey confirmed sighting
the price of being a lurker for too long
Probably didnt feel like writing the essay i bet? I got denied a couple times
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