I feel like my day is approaching. I've probably felt like blowing my dome off since I was ~9, but with NEETmaxxing I always told myself I'd do it after HS/at 18 when parents demands got higher cuz at least I could slackmaxx during school. Then I got into drinking and smoking, 1-2 bottles of vodka a day and 2 packs of (unfiltered) Marlboro Reds a day - filter ripped off, they don't make unfiltered - at least here.
Then I got into huntmaxxing, nothing beats the taste of killing something.
Between neetmaxxing, addictmaxxing, and gamermaxxing, copes, I'm still alive way beyond the age I would've ever expected, but all copes come to an end one day. And I feel like now, the more I drink, the closER I am to grabbing one of my 12 gauges and pressing it to my temple. I feel like one day, I'll blackout 2 bottles of vodka deep and nevER wake up... What are your copes? How do you keep going? I have a little brother ~16 years my junior. I feel like if it weren't for him, I would've GTA'd or sudoku'd years ago. I can't do that to him - but I can't go on in this shitty life eithER.
AnywhERe else, or on any othER forum, I'd get cucked
answERs about 200$/hr thERapy for sitting on a couch and pretending to care/listen, and, "it's all gonna be ok" ... How do you guys cope? Doesn't help that to buy a shit hole house in the ghetto now, you need to make like 200k+a year cuz since Kung Flu houses have gone up like 10x.
And yeah, I am drunk AF as I write this. I just drank a whole fifth in the last ~1-2 hours.
Then I got into huntmaxxing, nothing beats the taste of killing something.
Between neetmaxxing, addictmaxxing, and gamermaxxing, copes, I'm still alive way beyond the age I would've ever expected, but all copes come to an end one day. And I feel like now, the more I drink, the closER I am to grabbing one of my 12 gauges and pressing it to my temple. I feel like one day, I'll blackout 2 bottles of vodka deep and nevER wake up... What are your copes? How do you keep going? I have a little brother ~16 years my junior. I feel like if it weren't for him, I would've GTA'd or sudoku'd years ago. I can't do that to him - but I can't go on in this shitty life eithER.
AnywhERe else, or on any othER forum, I'd get cucked
answERs about 200$/hr thERapy for sitting on a couch and pretending to care/listen, and, "it's all gonna be ok" ... How do you guys cope? Doesn't help that to buy a shit hole house in the ghetto now, you need to make like 200k+a year cuz since Kung Flu houses have gone up like 10x. And yeah, I am drunk AF as I write this. I just drank a whole fifth in the last ~1-2 hours.
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