I felt like that about the ol' AA battery for a long time. It sounded and looked like a bunch of retarded bullshit, and yeah, there is a lot of retarded shit that goes down over there.
I went back there because literally nothing else worked for me. Every pharmacological, financial, social, religious, psychiatric, legal, psychotherapeutic, substitution mindhack bullshit trick did not work. Losing jobs, going to jail, getting sued, falling down stairs, throwing up all day, losing and breaking shit all the time didn't stop me. Wanting to stop didn't stop me. Desperately wanting to stop didn't stop me.
But that last house on the block did. I just showed up enough times, hungover as shit, until I started hearing some old timers say things that made sense, to me. The things they said stuck in my mind, I started reading the book, and started to do a few of the easy things in the book and started to think differently. Something in me was rewiring itself. I'd find myself in the parking lot of a liquor store and see my hand putting the key back in the ignition to drive away. I can't explain why or how that started to happen.
Approaching two years now without a drop, which is a miracle for someone who for years drank hard to cope. I'm not selling batteries here or anywhere. Nobody does. It's not the only solution, I'm sure. But it's the only one that's ever worked for me, and the only one I've seen work for others who drank like me. I work with enough to say that at least.
Also, and this is just my $0.02, rehab and treatment centers are a scam. Tens or even hundreds of thousands of dollars apparently, and I'm not sure what competence or resources are really there. I'd see guys from there end up back at the battery. You do what works. If you're getting seizures or DTs, go to the hospital.
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