trulyover312
trucel from the cradle to the grave
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- Sep 9, 2020
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From the moment I wake up to the moment I sleep, all I ever fuckin think about for the past two years is my looks, looks and looks. My whole day is just spent researching on shit to do with looks or either looksmaxxing in some way.
It's sad as hell. I was just going through my phone and saw a "to-do list" that I made two years ago (when I was 18 and bluepilled) of all the things that I want to ever do in my life. I want to accomplish so much and do so much but my whole mind is just corrupted and I can't ever focus on anything else due to my looks It pains me so much. And the thing is I know I will never ever be happy with myself because I will never be of a looks level satisfactory to girls.
I just want to get out of all this and focus on other aspects of life. I will probably still get my surgeries in the future but i'm done with bothering with girls. I will never be enough for them. I know it and I accept it. I just want to be happy with myself for my own sanity like I used to be as a little kid, so I can do other things. I want to stop looking in the mirror all day from thousands of different angles. I want to stop looking at my face from different phones in different lightings, in different angles. It's just too much. I'm only 21 right now, so not all my life is gone but I really want to just escape my BDD, get a grip on myself and move on with other things. what do i do?
It's sad as hell. I was just going through my phone and saw a "to-do list" that I made two years ago (when I was 18 and bluepilled) of all the things that I want to ever do in my life. I want to accomplish so much and do so much but my whole mind is just corrupted and I can't ever focus on anything else due to my looks It pains me so much. And the thing is I know I will never ever be happy with myself because I will never be of a looks level satisfactory to girls.
I just want to get out of all this and focus on other aspects of life. I will probably still get my surgeries in the future but i'm done with bothering with girls. I will never be enough for them. I know it and I accept it. I just want to be happy with myself for my own sanity like I used to be as a little kid, so I can do other things. I want to stop looking in the mirror all day from thousands of different angles. I want to stop looking at my face from different phones in different lightings, in different angles. It's just too much. I'm only 21 right now, so not all my life is gone but I really want to just escape my BDD, get a grip on myself and move on with other things. what do i do?