
Deleted member 7448
Name is Abdu, live in Laos, born on 24.08.1992.
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As a kid I wasn't ugly, I was normal-looking. But I was autistic. Well, it wasn't THAT bad, I was almost normal just very shy and introverted, so kids would pick on me and stuff like that.
I was also weak. Over time that was a big downside, even if you're not outright beaten up, but as a guy being weaker than other guys will drastically change how people act towards you. I was also sickly, had various problems with my health, nothing too bad (until my 20s when I fucked my health up beyond belief with alcohol).
Anyway, then iirc I became slightly fat at ~11 or 12. I wasn't very fat, just a tiny bit chubby at my belly, but as a skinny guy I guess that belly stood out, so I was a bit mocked for being fat. Unathletic, weak, fat. Girls didn't like me one bit. I don't remember how my depression started, but being an outcast and girls not liking me while I was very, very horny as a teen was definitely a part of it.
I also ruined my eyesight by rotting in front of a screen all day long/after school. Had to wear glasses, now I was ugly. Glasses + weak = ugly.
Nothing too bad up until now. In highschool I became anorexic, I guess I thought if I lost weight I'd be attractive to girls. For 1 year or 1 year and a half I was very skinny, girls didn't like me, was told I look sickly or weird. Eventually I became fat again, what was the point? Tried the gym for 4 months, not one bit of muscle, still couldn't do a pullup.
Then at ~17 I also started losing my hair a bit. Things are getting bad look-wise. Thinning hair + thicker glasses + still a weakling and fat. Uggo.
Then most of you know my story, lost 2 of my front teeth when I was an alcoholic. Not too bad, I can get fillings/crowns and shit and it looks normal, though they fall off pretty often.
Ohh right and I had acne since I was a teen till now in my mid 20s. Also have acne all over my head now, which is a nice bonus, especially with my head being NW4 bald now.
I was also weak. Over time that was a big downside, even if you're not outright beaten up, but as a guy being weaker than other guys will drastically change how people act towards you. I was also sickly, had various problems with my health, nothing too bad (until my 20s when I fucked my health up beyond belief with alcohol).
Anyway, then iirc I became slightly fat at ~11 or 12. I wasn't very fat, just a tiny bit chubby at my belly, but as a skinny guy I guess that belly stood out, so I was a bit mocked for being fat. Unathletic, weak, fat. Girls didn't like me one bit. I don't remember how my depression started, but being an outcast and girls not liking me while I was very, very horny as a teen was definitely a part of it.
I also ruined my eyesight by rotting in front of a screen all day long/after school. Had to wear glasses, now I was ugly. Glasses + weak = ugly.
Nothing too bad up until now. In highschool I became anorexic, I guess I thought if I lost weight I'd be attractive to girls. For 1 year or 1 year and a half I was very skinny, girls didn't like me, was told I look sickly or weird. Eventually I became fat again, what was the point? Tried the gym for 4 months, not one bit of muscle, still couldn't do a pullup.
Then at ~17 I also started losing my hair a bit. Things are getting bad look-wise. Thinning hair + thicker glasses + still a weakling and fat. Uggo.
Then most of you know my story, lost 2 of my front teeth when I was an alcoholic. Not too bad, I can get fillings/crowns and shit and it looks normal, though they fall off pretty often.
Ohh right and I had acne since I was a teen till now in my mid 20s. Also have acne all over my head now, which is a nice bonus, especially with my head being NW4 bald now.