Zeref
I chose nothing but here I'm
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I was raised as a Muslim but intuitively I believed none of this is true, I was never serious about it ever. At the age of 13 I went down the rabbit hole of atheism and ended up becoming one. At this point even if god was to manifest himself in front of me, I still wouldn't believe in religion.
I've always been frustrated with my life, I was bullied for being weak and I've always been unhealthy. I choose none of this, and on top of that I started reading Schopenhauer and other pessimistic philosophers. I would infact consider myself a Pessimist.
Lately this nihilistic and hedonistic outlook of life is troubling me, I spend most of the time gooning and not studying. Things haven't been going good with family, I wanna leave them asap but to do that I've to get my shit together and start studying.
I think returning back to religion is the only way to do so, how do I delude myself to be a believer again ?
I've always been frustrated with my life, I was bullied for being weak and I've always been unhealthy. I choose none of this, and on top of that I started reading Schopenhauer and other pessimistic philosophers. I would infact consider myself a Pessimist.
Lately this nihilistic and hedonistic outlook of life is troubling me, I spend most of the time gooning and not studying. Things haven't been going good with family, I wanna leave them asap but to do that I've to get my shit together and start studying.
I think returning back to religion is the only way to do so, how do I delude myself to be a believer again ?





