I'm starting to realize that there are no options for me. I asked my sister for advice on talking to women and she said that since I'm autistic, I should only use dating apps, since I could scare women. I told her that mathematically it's impossible to find someone on dating apps as an ugly guy these days. Men might have a chance (no guarantee but only a chance) if they are a Chad while on the apps. She just looked at me confused. She didn't even know how rough it is to meet someone on apps. I can't talk to women in person, because of my autism, and she confirmed it.
I had been coping through gymmaxxing, but I feel out of that habit recently which I admittedly do regret. Now I have been deluding myself with the concept of statusmaxxing, but studying in college part time (since I'm also working) will take 6-8 years, plus then I would have to rise up in position, just to have a chance of having enough money to dangle in front of a single mom when I'm 40. I still plan on doing it, but I'm not hopeful about meeting a woman who would tolerate my existence for money.
Why must I have the cardinal sin of wanting romance while being an autistic sub5 male? Why is it so bad to want something so innate? Why aren't Chads, Women, Gays, Lesbians, ect., condemned for wanting what they want? They pretty much want the same thing I do. Why can't I just be gay or asexual? No, those people are outliers, you can't be an outlier unless it's something prohibiting you from seeking out romance.
How does one cope with all of this? How can I accept who I am?
I had been coping through gymmaxxing, but I feel out of that habit recently which I admittedly do regret. Now I have been deluding myself with the concept of statusmaxxing, but studying in college part time (since I'm also working) will take 6-8 years, plus then I would have to rise up in position, just to have a chance of having enough money to dangle in front of a single mom when I'm 40. I still plan on doing it, but I'm not hopeful about meeting a woman who would tolerate my existence for money.
Why must I have the cardinal sin of wanting romance while being an autistic sub5 male? Why is it so bad to want something so innate? Why aren't Chads, Women, Gays, Lesbians, ect., condemned for wanting what they want? They pretty much want the same thing I do. Why can't I just be gay or asexual? No, those people are outliers, you can't be an outlier unless it's something prohibiting you from seeking out romance.
How does one cope with all of this? How can I accept who I am?
