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Beakcel
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My entire life women would mock me for my appearance and would go out of their way to make sure I felt like shit on a daily basis from 7th grade. I can actually remember the exact moment that it started.
For some reason every morning we had to line up outside the class room and wait for the teacher. We had to be in 2 lines next to each other so you would always be standing next to someone. That day I happened to be next to one of the girls and one of her friends further up the line said "omg Amy look who you're standing next to" she then looked over at me and let out a really long exaggerated "eeeeewwwwww" and then started to push her friends to stand next to me instead and all the girls laughed while shoving each other trying to not be the one that has to stand next to me.
Couldn't think about anything else that day. Went home a spent over an hour looking at myself in the mirror from different angles with the aid of a 2nd mirror and realised I was a sub human abomination. We had assigned seating in class not long after and the asshole teacher put me between 2 girls and they would often try to swap seats and argue over who's turn it was to sit next to me. I NEVER EVEN SPOKE TO THESE WOMEN they had no reason to treat me like this other than my looks. I wasn't even fat and had no acne. After several months of this treatment I remember having a deep desire to end my life that carried over in to high school.
There is no way anyone can grow into a happy healthy functional adult when you start out your teen years thinking about taking your own life to save others the inconvenience of having to be next to you.
I would cope by thinking that "highschool isn't real life" but the reality is real life is much worse.
As an ugly man, women get mad at you just for existing, I can't go to the gym and use a bench or a piece of equipment that is next to or near a woman, I can't go to a register or check out that is staffed by a woman. If I walk past a group of teen girls they will almost always take a photo of me or film me and laugh. Group sports/activities? Forget it, if there's women in that group they will instantly be "creeped out" by my existing before I've even said anything to them. I'm not assuming any of this, this is all first hand experience that I've had following bluepilled advice for the last 15 years.
How are we supposed to overcome the physical looks barrier and display our personalities (good or bad) when most women's initial reaction to us is intense anger and hatred?
For some reason every morning we had to line up outside the class room and wait for the teacher. We had to be in 2 lines next to each other so you would always be standing next to someone. That day I happened to be next to one of the girls and one of her friends further up the line said "omg Amy look who you're standing next to" she then looked over at me and let out a really long exaggerated "eeeeewwwwww" and then started to push her friends to stand next to me instead and all the girls laughed while shoving each other trying to not be the one that has to stand next to me.
Couldn't think about anything else that day. Went home a spent over an hour looking at myself in the mirror from different angles with the aid of a 2nd mirror and realised I was a sub human abomination. We had assigned seating in class not long after and the asshole teacher put me between 2 girls and they would often try to swap seats and argue over who's turn it was to sit next to me. I NEVER EVEN SPOKE TO THESE WOMEN they had no reason to treat me like this other than my looks. I wasn't even fat and had no acne. After several months of this treatment I remember having a deep desire to end my life that carried over in to high school.
There is no way anyone can grow into a happy healthy functional adult when you start out your teen years thinking about taking your own life to save others the inconvenience of having to be next to you.
I would cope by thinking that "highschool isn't real life" but the reality is real life is much worse.
As an ugly man, women get mad at you just for existing, I can't go to the gym and use a bench or a piece of equipment that is next to or near a woman, I can't go to a register or check out that is staffed by a woman. If I walk past a group of teen girls they will almost always take a photo of me or film me and laugh. Group sports/activities? Forget it, if there's women in that group they will instantly be "creeped out" by my existing before I've even said anything to them. I'm not assuming any of this, this is all first hand experience that I've had following bluepilled advice for the last 15 years.
How are we supposed to overcome the physical looks barrier and display our personalities (good or bad) when most women's initial reaction to us is intense anger and hatred?