Was feeling extra lonely this friday night just gone so I got drunk and hit the town as it's my way of coping. Business as usual I'm just wandering around eating whatever bullshit I bought from the kebab shop when I go sit down on a bus bench. Sitting alongside were 3 people who for some reason pretended to care about me, they hugged me and because I haven't been hugged by anyone in years I just burst out crying about how lonely I am. They tried to reassure me but I knew it's all a facade.
Everyone who tells me someone will come my way just pisses me off more as they don't understand how crippling being an autist is the real world. I speak in a monotone voice constantly, don't pick up on ANY social cues, miss jokes, never know how to reply to a lot of things people say. I'm sick of people telling me it's going to get better when it's obviously not. It's only downhill from here as the older I get the less people are gonna tolerate with my autism. Sorry for the rant fellas I've been in a shit place these past few days
Everyone who tells me someone will come my way just pisses me off more as they don't understand how crippling being an autist is the real world. I speak in a monotone voice constantly, don't pick up on ANY social cues, miss jokes, never know how to reply to a lot of things people say. I'm sick of people telling me it's going to get better when it's obviously not. It's only downhill from here as the older I get the less people are gonna tolerate with my autism. Sorry for the rant fellas I've been in a shit place these past few days
