HeroinNihilism
pilotwings64cel
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The four years you experience in high school is without a doubt, the four most important years of your life. NOTHING ELSE MATTERS. Subsequently, the four years you have in college afterwards are the second most important. But really. If you can't fucking get high school right, it WILL traumatize you for the rest of your fucking life. You fucking kids don't understand is that the teen faces and flippant attitudes in high school-- it will STICK WITH YOU FOR THE REST OF YOUR FUCKING LIFE. Nothing else feels right. Nothing is more RAW. Nothing is more REAL.
Every other place is just a revolving door. Even college. College is too big, too filtered demographically, people come and go, and nobody leaves a big impression. Every other place has ways for oddballs like us to simply opt out. But not high school. High school truly challenges you socially, by throwing you into a deep end, see how a maladjusted weirdo like you would fare among a pool of borderline psychotic normies, while your hormones are going insane. It's an insane, foolish experiment you will never suffer at any other point in your life, and that's why it's so traumatizing.
Like prison, it's the only social challenge that you are completely forced to confront with all your humanity. It's the ultimate litmus test of survival. And it's fucking proof that if you failed here-- and of course I'm not talking academically. I'm talking socially. If you failed in high school SOCIALLY, then you have failed as a person. And it's unlikely you will course correct, unless you highly game the system in your favor thru money or connections you have obtained passively outside of high school.
In high school, WHEN YOU ARE A TEEN, and your hormones are raging, and your competitiveness is at an all time high, you fucking FEEL the power of the social hierarchy in your bones, and it just fucking imprints in your brain demonically. IM FUCKING IN MY 40s and I CANT LET IT GO. It makes me want to throw a chair in a wall EVERY FUCKING DAY, the frustration and not having TEEN SEX AS A TEEN. To never have a cool and popular moment as a TEEN like doing cocaine, or ditching school to shoot up heroin by a fence with my buddies and vandalize some wall. To bully some DORK beneath you. This is what makes life great. And I fucking want it, I WANTED to have peaked in high school, because peaking at any other time in life is simply LESS.
Only in high school, will you will never forget, who had sex, and who didn't have sex. IN HIGH SCHOOL. Who was popular, and who wasn't?? Who was smartest in the class?? What COLLEGE they went to? What were the cliques? All these stupid power games at the neighborhood MATTERED. And they will matter, because it leaves a huge scar in your brain that leaves you absolutely unsatisfied. All these stupid teen high school hijinks you know you missed out on. YOU CANT ERASE IT FROM YOUR FUCKING MIND IF YOU WERE A VIRGIN THE ENTIRE TIME. Of course, if you had teen sex as a teen, that's a different story. Then of course high school is just a fleeting goalpost you breeze past, non-virgins have normie aspirations like money, power, or hedonism. And they will say I'm crazy. BUT IM ONLY CRAZY BECAUSE I WAS A VIRGIN IN HIGH SCHOOL, and if you are gonna be a virgin thru high school ( and likely past college), I don't fucknig care if you move on to be able to afford 200 whores a year, I don't care if you ascend at 30 and lose your virginity to a high quality woman; at the end of the day, you will end up exactly like ME, if you never knew what it was like to peak in high school.
Very solid post, friend.