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I have said before, I have had many years of danger.
Not knowing when the end would come.
For a long time, I was anger itself.
Growing up, I got into the martial arts. We moved around a lot when I was a kid. Every new town, I’d start a new martial art.
I was never anywhere long enough to get a black belt, but I understand the fundamentals of 4 different styles.
Then I got into the Frank Cucci Navy SEAL Unarmed Combat program, it is still on YouTube I think.
I listened to violent music, watched violent movies and played violent video games.
I just want to say, it was all a waste of time. More than a waste of time, I was hurting myself by doing those things.
One day, many years later, I had a realization.
I didn’t have to live with all that anger.
It was a choice.
I was an old man still hurt from wounds from a long time ago.
In truth, I was keeping myself from healing, by refusing to let go.
Love heals all wounds. Hate can never bring peace.
Am I angry about being an incel? Hell, yes.
But do I hate women? No.
There is a line between those two things.
Actually, I get angry every day. But I don’t hate the people who have pissed me off.
I understand that they feel.
Think about that.
They feel.
However much I think that they are pieces of shit, I recognize the fact that they get sad or happy and all the other feelings that I have.
It sounds so simple, but for a long time, I didn’t fully acknowledge it.
So my brothers, forgive others.
Not just for them…..they may not even care.
But forgive them for your own benefit.
Don’t waste your life dwelling on what your enemies have done to you.
Take it from me, my own anger was more destructive to me than anything anyone else ever did.
Not knowing when the end would come.
For a long time, I was anger itself.
Growing up, I got into the martial arts. We moved around a lot when I was a kid. Every new town, I’d start a new martial art.
I was never anywhere long enough to get a black belt, but I understand the fundamentals of 4 different styles.
Then I got into the Frank Cucci Navy SEAL Unarmed Combat program, it is still on YouTube I think.
I listened to violent music, watched violent movies and played violent video games.
I just want to say, it was all a waste of time. More than a waste of time, I was hurting myself by doing those things.
One day, many years later, I had a realization.
I didn’t have to live with all that anger.
It was a choice.
I was an old man still hurt from wounds from a long time ago.
In truth, I was keeping myself from healing, by refusing to let go.
Love heals all wounds. Hate can never bring peace.
Am I angry about being an incel? Hell, yes.
But do I hate women? No.
There is a line between those two things.
Actually, I get angry every day. But I don’t hate the people who have pissed me off.
I understand that they feel.
Think about that.
They feel.
However much I think that they are pieces of shit, I recognize the fact that they get sad or happy and all the other feelings that I have.
It sounds so simple, but for a long time, I didn’t fully acknowledge it.
So my brothers, forgive others.
Not just for them…..they may not even care.
But forgive them for your own benefit.
Don’t waste your life dwelling on what your enemies have done to you.
Take it from me, my own anger was more destructive to me than anything anyone else ever did.
