This post is going to be an incoherent venting of my thoughts. There is no bigger point to be made. Its just venting. You're free to reply "TL;DR DIDN'T READ LOLOLOL" This post is more or less akin to a diary entry.
Does a random topic just come into your head because of your autism? Everybody knows that feel where you dig down a rabbit hole of a topic, but its so deep that you start to feel information overload. Like for example the blackpill. On the surface the blackpill can be summarized as "your fate is determined by circumstances outside of your control". But because of autism, you begin to feel as if there's something missing, there must be the ultimate answer rather than just a basic axiom "your fate is determined by circumstances outside of your control".
Surely, the blackpill can be expanded upon rather than just the basic axiom of "your fate is determined by circumstances outside of your control" Like the biological implications of the blackpill, what is the meaning of life ultimately, what is the nature of the universe according to the blackpill, the blackpill applied to: human social behaviors, animal behavior, internet communities.
And by the way, I'm just using the blackpill as an example. This post does not exclusively talk about the blackpill and that isn't the point im trying to make.
I can't stop obsessing over the simple things. But I can't adequately explain it to the point where its just right but not too verbose.
As you understand one topic, more questions arise. It becomes a game of whack-a-mole. Trying to understand the scope of it just seems like a daunting task and you're just stuck with that surface level axiom. No depth. You just passively accept it.
Does a random topic just come into your head because of your autism? Everybody knows that feel where you dig down a rabbit hole of a topic, but its so deep that you start to feel information overload. Like for example the blackpill. On the surface the blackpill can be summarized as "your fate is determined by circumstances outside of your control". But because of autism, you begin to feel as if there's something missing, there must be the ultimate answer rather than just a basic axiom "your fate is determined by circumstances outside of your control".
Surely, the blackpill can be expanded upon rather than just the basic axiom of "your fate is determined by circumstances outside of your control" Like the biological implications of the blackpill, what is the meaning of life ultimately, what is the nature of the universe according to the blackpill, the blackpill applied to: human social behaviors, animal behavior, internet communities.
And by the way, I'm just using the blackpill as an example. This post does not exclusively talk about the blackpill and that isn't the point im trying to make.
I can't stop obsessing over the simple things. But I can't adequately explain it to the point where its just right but not too verbose.
As you understand one topic, more questions arise. It becomes a game of whack-a-mole. Trying to understand the scope of it just seems like a daunting task and you're just stuck with that surface level axiom. No depth. You just passively accept it.
