3b) So I'm working for a few hours and the whole time I'm pissed at myself for ruining some of the boxes although the cards were all still good. I go to school and enter the home room. It was a class for students that all had jobs so it was about 40 or 50 of us about. Majority were female so back then I liked the class because of the high potential for female interaction. So I start passing out the chocolates and cards attached and all the class is giddy with excitement. All the girls are taking pictures and waiting for me to give them their valentine. A few I didn't have chocolate boxes for because they were ruined so I had to lie and say I ran out of money and couldn't buy enough boxes. The ones that didn't get boxes were angry with me. Then a few were angry (especially this one chink) because my hand written poems weren't all that unique. No two were the same but I'm not a fucking writer and so yes some of them either followed the same pattern or used the same rhyme scheme but they were all different. The girls were comparing their cards and angry they weren't unique enough. Then some other girls that got everything were upset that the chocolate boxes I got didn't have the kinds of chocolates they wanted (It was a variety pack).
Row by row I was handing out valentines and not a single fucking whore thanked me. It wasn't until I got up to give one to my female teacher that she told the class to start thanking me so they did. God I'm sorry if this comes off as bitchy but this moment in time is one of my biggest regrets. For the longest time I would think about this moment over and over and wonder if I did anything different if I could have gotten a gf. If I just stayed up all night to think of unique poems. If I wasn't in a rush to go to work and gave a girl a choclate box that didn't get one would she have dated me? The one chink girl told me her valentine was very cute and she told her mom about it and her Mom wanted to meet me. I'm not Chinese but what if her Mom wanted to fuck and give me some of that sucky-sucky fucky-fucky?
I just can't fathom that a whole room of god dam females and none of them wanted to date me. None of them thanked me. None of them gave me a god dam valentine and NONE of them was truly happy. They all found fault with something I did or about me (I was super sweaty since I ran to work and school and my clothes got dirty so I didn't look the best that day. I was also upset with myself because of this. if I looked proper would someone have dated me then?)
Then you look back and I realized I went above and beyond. I couldn't do any more. Why does putting in all this effort get me no pussy? No kiss? Not even a hug? A handshake? Something?
Then you overhear these fucking sluts talk about their boyfriends and how their boyfriends didn't do a god damn thing for them yet it is valentine so they still feel obliged to suck his dick and let him hit it raw HOLY SHIT I FUCKING HATE WOMEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I work from home now and don't really go out anymore since I gave up on life and social interactions but this is a recent-ish one.
4) I go out to a restaurant with a coworker. We go to Golden Wok. The Golden Wok I eat at has TVs so you can watch sports or news or whatever else they have on. So my coworker is eating a big meal and taking a while so I start viewing one of the TVs. I guess I look dumbfounded or something because next thing I know this obvious giga-whore white bitch hollers (she is at dining table. we are at drink table but next to each other), "a;jsdf;jas;dfasfj"
I guess I didn't realize she was talking to me so she snaps her fucking fingers at me and hollers, "Where are you looking at?"
the question was so dumb and she caught me off-guard I just kept going, "Huh?" Huh? What? Huh?" over and over. I literally was so confused. My coworker is stuffing his face and this bitch is accosting me. She keeps telling me why I'm looking at her and her friend and I keep telling them I'm just looking at the TV. This whore doesn't believe me. She keeps accusing me of looking at her and her friend. I fucking want to flip the fuck out but she is quite loud in this Asian Restaurant so I just try and ignore this bitch for a good 3-5 minutes. She keeps trying to anger me and her friend is giggling and now she has the surrounding tables looking at me and kind of smiling under their breath as well. So I just admit defeat and apologize and say that I shouldn't be looking that way and turn around and wait for my coworker to finish eating. He finishes and I pay the bill and then we leave silently as I try my best to not look in that direction or at the table.
This one was quite brutal. I'm shy enough as it is then for some bitch to start shit with me while I'm out in public and especially she's a bitch and a white devil. At least asian cunts have a bit of tact and would probably whisper or something for me to turn away but these white whores were hollering right over the table so staff and the surrounding tables could hear. It wasn't his fault but I was eyeing down my coworker so fucking hard with my eyes, "HURRY THE FUCK UP AND EAT SO WE CAN LEAVE!!!" but he didn't get the hint so I had to take her abuse for another 5 minutes and about 10 minutes of uncomfortable silence.