- May 3, 2021
- 14h 47m
I've been thinking that my sadness comes from hearing about the outside world, and my mom as well as my counselor have both suggested not paying attention to the news anymore. The problem with that is that I may not be constantly reading about it, but I know it's still happening because of object permanence. I thought of intentionally giving myself brain damage but decided against it because I might accidentally disable my ability to walk or something; so I think I should just ACT dumb and ignorant in order to lessen my urge to blow my fucking brains out.