This is going to be a short story of my "descent" into the black pill, and the weirdly unfortunate coincidences that happened in quick succession that began to shape my mindset and my philosophy for life. When you reach the part at university when all the shit starts happening you'll understand. I always used to think I was cursed in some way but when all of those events started happening I really started believing it 
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On some level I actually do think it's dangerous to have people "in my life", not only for my own sake as they are an unwanted burden, but for their sake too lol.
Like seriously, if I was an rpg character and you could look at my stat chart, you'd see a negative value for luck, and some kind of permanent debuff status effect.
Below you'll see a quote that comes from a movie that I recommend every incel watch. That quote fits my philosophy for life very well and I think this philosophy would be useful to most men period, but I don't really care about most men, so it only matters to me if incels make use of it.
Ok now lets begin the story.
For me when it came to girls it was never just one girl, I've never had "oneitis", I can't relate to the guys who talk about that shit at all. There were just too many cute girls around for me to obsess over just one, so oneitis will never make sense to me.
The first time I got friendzoned I was like 6 or something, no joke. There was this cute asian girl I liked in schoool and she gave me the whole "I like you as a friend" response. That shit hit hard because I was so young.
I started liking girls at a really young age btw, I like I was 4 to 5 years old and grabbing the girls butts in school, but I was so short and cute looking during those years the girls would just giggle and laugh it off lol. Those were some good times. I was always thristy as hell I guess lol. I swear I would just wait around till recess to go and be around the girls.
The last rejection I had which was the last straw for me approaching and trying to date, was at university. I lowered my standards completely and targeted a girl who you could say wasn't even on my looks tier, but I forgot the golden rule. Women don't really exist on tiers because men fuck down, so there's always a more attractive man willing to date and fuck her.
At the same time I won't be dishonest with myself and paint her as some kind of cliche whore, I don't think she rejected me solely based on looks, she was definitely on the autistic spectrum and she was very very religious and seemed to have strict parents. I'm pretty sure she was a virgin too. She just wasn't ready to date. Now at the same time I'm not delusional, had I been 6ft tall and attractive I know without a doubt I would have been able to coax her into fucking me within a matter of days. She was definitely an exception to the rule in some respects, but she was still just a woman like every other woman.
Women make rules for betas, but they break rules for alphas.
Your "I'm not that kind of girl" is Chad's "Ok *tee hee*, only this time ok".
You will have to pretty much beg women and degrade yourself with jester tricks to get a blow job, but women will gladly offer up their asshole to Chad without him even asking.
But I digress.
After that shit (that last rejection) I was like "fuck it" when it comes to approaching and trying to date. I didn't finish my degree at university, I had failed an exam and I didn't see the point in continuing to bother finishing it, especially because my degree was in a saturated field and I wanted to avoid the college debt and pursue something entrepreneurial. So I left university to wealthmaxx. Around that time before I left one of my friends killed himself too, I just felt less and less like chasing a degree to become a wageslave.
It's kinda funny when I look back. It was like reality was showing me that everything that I felt secure about in life was completely worthless, not dependable, and could be taken away or rendered useless at a moments notice.
Intelligence - Didn't matter, there's always someone smarter than you and the world is more competitive to today. I'd just end up being a wage slave for the rest of my life paying off college debt. I was always one of the top students in my class in my earlier years, but that all changed when I went to university.
Personality - Doesn't matter, you can work on your personality, become a better conversationalist, get hobbies, etc, at the end of the day if you don't hit a specific height and facial looks threshold you will have little to no romantic success with women.
Friendship - Doesn't matter, people are individuals, each having their own plans for life and their own limitations for how much they are willing to do to get what they want out of life. That friend group that you are structuring your entire life around can fall apart very easily.
Etc, etc, etc.
The funniest realization for me is that YOU LITERALLY CAN'T EVEN DEPEND ON YOUR FRIENDS TO FUCKING STAY ALIVE!
You would think that something this obvious would just be self evident to me, but I don't really think this concept sinks in for most people until something bad happens. We all just happen to think that life is going to progress smoothly for us and everyone within our sphere of influence.
Any one of your friends and family could die in an accident, kill themselves, be murdered, etc, nothing is guaranteed in this world.
A lot of other things happened too among the three that I listed above, but basically it was like the universe itself was speaking to me, and telling me that all of my beliefs were wrong, everything that gave me a sense of security in life didn't really exist, it was an illusion.
Everything that I took pride in and valued was worthless, in fact, pride itself was worthless.
I realized that the only thing you can depend on is yourself. Your own consciousness, your own goals, your own desires, your own path in life.
YOU CAN ONLY TRULY LIVE FOR YOURSELF.
You should treat your life like it's one man journey, and if you feel like it and some people want to come along with you, you let them, but never make plans around other people coming on that journey with you.
Treat every relationship you have in the same way that a lizard treats it's tail. Useful, but if necessary it can be dropped and left behind so that you can move on without hesitation.
Were all born alone and we all die alone, "togetherness" is an illusion, in this life there is ONLY YOU.
I randomly found this movie a few months ago and there's this famous quote that Robert De Niro's character [UWSL](Neil McCauley) says throughout the movie. I saw the quote scene in some youtube video and it made me want to watch the movie.[/UWSL]
[UWSL][/UWSL]
View: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rGPWW9Pjzto
"Don't let yourself get attached to anything you are not willing to walk out on in 30 seconds flat if you feel the heat around the corner."
It surprised me how well it fit with my current philosophy for life which I've already held for years before I saw this movie. I would not even have been able to relate to that line if I had watched it before my experiences at university, I would still be kinda blue pilled and I would think he was crazy lol.
[UWSL][/UWSL]
I'm not the type to hang "framed quotes" in my room or an "office" (if I ever have one in the future). But if I was ever to do something like that. That's the quote that would be on the wall. I swear I get chills sometimes when I watch that scene over.
.On some level I actually do think it's dangerous to have people "in my life", not only for my own sake as they are an unwanted burden, but for their sake too lol.
Like seriously, if I was an rpg character and you could look at my stat chart, you'd see a negative value for luck, and some kind of permanent debuff status effect
.Below you'll see a quote that comes from a movie that I recommend every incel watch. That quote fits my philosophy for life very well and I think this philosophy would be useful to most men period, but I don't really care about most men, so it only matters to me if incels make use of it.
Ok now lets begin the story.
For me when it came to girls it was never just one girl, I've never had "oneitis", I can't relate to the guys who talk about that shit at all. There were just too many cute girls around for me to obsess over just one, so oneitis will never make sense to me.
The first time I got friendzoned I was like 6 or something, no joke. There was this cute asian girl I liked in schoool and she gave me the whole "I like you as a friend" response. That shit hit hard because I was so young.
I started liking girls at a really young age btw, I like I was 4 to 5 years old and grabbing the girls butts in school, but I was so short and cute looking during those years the girls would just giggle and laugh it off lol. Those were some good times. I was always thristy as hell I guess lol. I swear I would just wait around till recess to go and be around the girls
.The last rejection I had which was the last straw for me approaching and trying to date, was at university. I lowered my standards completely and targeted a girl who you could say wasn't even on my looks tier, but I forgot the golden rule. Women don't really exist on tiers because men fuck down, so there's always a more attractive man willing to date and fuck her.
At the same time I won't be dishonest with myself and paint her as some kind of cliche whore, I don't think she rejected me solely based on looks, she was definitely on the autistic spectrum and she was very very religious and seemed to have strict parents. I'm pretty sure she was a virgin too. She just wasn't ready to date. Now at the same time I'm not delusional, had I been 6ft tall and attractive I know without a doubt I would have been able to coax her into fucking me within a matter of days. She was definitely an exception to the rule in some respects, but she was still just a woman like every other woman.
Women make rules for betas, but they break rules for alphas.
Your "I'm not that kind of girl" is Chad's "Ok *tee hee*, only this time ok".
You will have to pretty much beg women and degrade yourself with jester tricks to get a blow job, but women will gladly offer up their asshole to Chad without him even asking
.But I digress.
After that shit (that last rejection) I was like "fuck it" when it comes to approaching and trying to date. I didn't finish my degree at university, I had failed an exam and I didn't see the point in continuing to bother finishing it, especially because my degree was in a saturated field and I wanted to avoid the college debt and pursue something entrepreneurial. So I left university to wealthmaxx. Around that time before I left one of my friends killed himself too, I just felt less and less like chasing a degree to become a wageslave.
It's kinda funny when I look back. It was like reality was showing me that everything that I felt secure about in life was completely worthless, not dependable, and could be taken away or rendered useless at a moments notice.
Intelligence - Didn't matter, there's always someone smarter than you and the world is more competitive to today. I'd just end up being a wage slave for the rest of my life paying off college debt. I was always one of the top students in my class in my earlier years, but that all changed when I went to university.
Personality - Doesn't matter, you can work on your personality, become a better conversationalist, get hobbies, etc, at the end of the day if you don't hit a specific height and facial looks threshold you will have little to no romantic success with women.
Friendship - Doesn't matter, people are individuals, each having their own plans for life and their own limitations for how much they are willing to do to get what they want out of life. That friend group that you are structuring your entire life around can fall apart very easily.
Etc, etc, etc.
The funniest realization for me is that YOU LITERALLY CAN'T EVEN DEPEND ON YOUR FRIENDS TO FUCKING STAY ALIVE!
You would think that something this obvious would just be self evident to me, but I don't really think this concept sinks in for most people until something bad happens. We all just happen to think that life is going to progress smoothly for us and everyone within our sphere of influence.
Any one of your friends and family could die in an accident, kill themselves, be murdered, etc, nothing is guaranteed in this world.
A lot of other things happened too among the three that I listed above, but basically it was like the universe itself was speaking to me, and telling me that all of my beliefs were wrong, everything that gave me a sense of security in life didn't really exist, it was an illusion.
Everything that I took pride in and valued was worthless, in fact, pride itself was worthless.
I realized that the only thing you can depend on is yourself. Your own consciousness, your own goals, your own desires, your own path in life.
YOU CAN ONLY TRULY LIVE FOR YOURSELF.
You should treat your life like it's one man journey, and if you feel like it and some people want to come along with you, you let them, but never make plans around other people coming on that journey with you.
Treat every relationship you have in the same way that a lizard treats it's tail. Useful, but if necessary it can be dropped and left behind so that you can move on without hesitation.
Were all born alone and we all die alone, "togetherness" is an illusion, in this life there is ONLY YOU.
I randomly found this movie a few months ago and there's this famous quote that Robert De Niro's character [UWSL](Neil McCauley) says throughout the movie. I saw the quote scene in some youtube video and it made me want to watch the movie.[/UWSL]
[UWSL][/UWSL]
View: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rGPWW9Pjzto
"Don't let yourself get attached to anything you are not willing to walk out on in 30 seconds flat if you feel the heat around the corner."
It surprised me how well it fit with my current philosophy for life which I've already held for years before I saw this movie. I would not even have been able to relate to that line if I had watched it before my experiences at university, I would still be kinda blue pilled and I would think he was crazy lol.
[UWSL][/UWSL]
The funny thing is, he broke his own rule (the quote) and ended up dead because of it at the end of the movie. You know hollywood has to make every "hard" character "a softie deep down", but had he stuck to that code he'd have gotten away with millions and would be living in luxury on some island.
I know I won't make that mistake. I'm going to stick to the code.
I know I won't make that mistake. I'm going to stick to the code.
I'm not the type to hang "framed quotes" in my room or an "office" (if I ever have one in the future). But if I was ever to do something like that. That's the quote that would be on the wall. I swear I get chills sometimes when I watch that scene over.
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