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Anger, envy, jealousy, hate, sadness, everything. Just a month or two ago I felt like complete shit every day. I would be filled with disgust and loathing every time I had to lay eyes upon foids and happy couples.
My detest for society was the only thing on my mind every day. In public, when I was alone in bed, when I woke up. All I had was resentment for a vile species of putrid whores and their worshipers. But I wished at the time that I didn't have to feel anything, I wanted to lose my humanity and just do whatever I had to
If you paid attention to my first posts, I tried just reverting back to childhood simplicity to escape it all, and it "worked" so i can have some enjoyment living for the time being but I know that things are going to end the same way they always would.
I realize that I still want payback for everything, I still want every rotten human who has everything handed to them and mocks the unfortunate to have all that they love stripped away from them.
I just don't have the emotions fueling me anymore, I can't feel anything strong and haven't for a while now, so it's just a fact of life that what will end me will end me no mattER how much I still feel emotions.
Should I do something to try and start feeling again so I can have hatefuel or should I accept not giving a shit and doing things anyways
My detest for society was the only thing on my mind every day. In public, when I was alone in bed, when I woke up. All I had was resentment for a vile species of putrid whores and their worshipers. But I wished at the time that I didn't have to feel anything, I wanted to lose my humanity and just do whatever I had to
If you paid attention to my first posts, I tried just reverting back to childhood simplicity to escape it all, and it "worked" so i can have some enjoyment living for the time being but I know that things are going to end the same way they always would.
I realize that I still want payback for everything, I still want every rotten human who has everything handed to them and mocks the unfortunate to have all that they love stripped away from them.
I just don't have the emotions fueling me anymore, I can't feel anything strong and haven't for a while now, so it's just a fact of life that what will end me will end me no mattER how much I still feel emotions.
Should I do something to try and start feeling again so I can have hatefuel or should I accept not giving a shit and doing things anyways
