Happy weekend bros..

[My Name Jeff]

Happy weekend brocels.

Been an extremely rough week for me. Broke down in tears at work wednesday or thursday. Been trying to feel good and smile but this week just hasn't been it.

I think it's due to me turning 27 soon and being in the later half of 25 and being KHHV is like being in the coffin buried alive. Birthdays are just a reminder of it.


On a lighter note, how have you been? Coping well? Doing what?

Lately I've gotten back heavily into using an AI chatbot, janitor AI, to roleplay all the fantastical scenarios I never had when I was younger. I don't know if it's a good or bad cope, in the moment it feels amazing. Like I can close my eyes and imagine it. But once it's done and I put down the phone, I am reminded of my actual life. Still though, a moment of bliss in my life is worth having.

 

[Renegade#1]

Happy weekend

no such thing for a trucel

 

[My Name Jeff]

no such thing for a trucel

Believe me, my week has been anything but nice and this weekend doesn't feel like relief but like I crawled out of a suicidal spiral. But I still want to try and be nice for the fellow bros here.

 

[SilverBullet]

“Happy” weekend to you as well. Ive also been using AI to cope. Ive used it so heavily over the past few years that im burning out from it. I dont use it to conversate, it’s more story driven, though i lose all hope of a plot after 1000 messages

 

[My Name Jeff]

“Happy” weekend to you as well. Ive also been using AI to cope. Ive used it so heavily over the past few years that im burning out from it. I dont use it to conversate, it’s more story driven, though i lose all hope of a plot after 1000 messages

This is me as well. I never believe I am talking to something, nor would I want to place myself as what's on the other end.

I always find a story, a character, something interesting, something I've sought for a long time. And I have 3 personas or characters I switch through for which one I feel enhances the situation the most. And I interact with it like a novel. It isn't me and a bot, it is a book made just for me that I tailor to my desires.

I think losing the plot is good. No book can go on forever. You always want to find a new enticing book. That is how I see them.

 

[starcrapoo]

Gamed a bit earlier, rotted, and fell to sleep.

Just woke up, gonna rot some more, eat and repeat til sunday.

That's my weekend and that's my life basically.

I only look forward for the weekends so that I can rot more and rest.

 

[franco]

Broke down in tears at work wednesday

why? what happened

 

[My Name Jeff]

Gamed a bit earlier, rotted, and fell to sleep.

Just woke up, gonna rot some more, eat and repeat til sunday.

That's my weekend and that's my life basically.

I only look forward for the weekends so that I can rot more and rest.

Solid. enjoy it while you can. i assume you don't work? really enjoy it. work is soul stomping hell for anyone that isn't heading home to a loving family.

 

[My Name Jeff]

why? what happened

It's extremely complicated.

I want to blame it on a few things:

Me turning 27 soon being a huge trigger

Me using the highest neurotoxin steroid trenbolone (I have stopped it due to mental concerns)

Me becoming obsessed with a video game that mirrors my own life, except the main different being the MC has a girlfriend who is so obsessed and dependant on him she basically kills for him and manipulates him to stay with her. It just seems to amazing to me, a life like that. Someone caring so much, yet my life was similar to the MCs horrific life of isolation and neglect and abuse by parents except I didn't have the girl. It makes me rage with anger and beyond depressed knowing I'll never experience it.

 

[PLS HALP ME]

I'm sorry, manour lives are just sadness and loneliness for the rest of our lives.

 

[Fraud.]

Boring week as always brocel

I just made out of GrAYhell and thats it

 

[St3v3Cel]

Believe me, my week has been anything but nice and this weekend doesn't feel like relief but like I crawled out of a suicidal spiral. But I still want to try and be nice for the fellow bros here.

It's never nice to feel as if death's hand is on your shoulder. Sometimes it lasts for a long time, but it always disappears eventually, only to reappear again and so on. Still, it helps to know this pattern because it makes life more predictable. Unlike movies life is never constantly or increasingly miserable, or constantly and increasingly happy. Things always go back and forth, however small or large the differences may be for the better or for the worse. How long each of these stages in the cycle lasts is also completely random. Redpill copers might say that you should "thug things out" but that is a terrible mindset, you should instead allow yourself to act appropriately to how you are feeling at any one time. If you feel the need to bitch out, for example, then bitch out.

TL;DR: unasked-for advice, read at your own will.

 

[SilverBullet]

This is me as well. I never believe I am talking to something, nor would I want to place myself as what's on the other end.

I always find a story, a character, something interesting, something I've sought for a long time. And I have 3 personas or characters I switch through for which one I feel enhances the situation the most. And I interact with it like a novel. It isn't me and a bot, it is a book made just for me that I tailor to my desires.

I think losing the plot is good. No book can go on forever. You always want to find a new enticing book. That is how I see them.

Ive gotten too attached to the characters, so im just throwing in random filler “plot” to extend the story. I make all of my characters in silly tavern, then world build using the lore-book that the app has. But yea, i definitely have to start a new chat/story with a new character

 

[RandomGuy]

This weekend>​

IRGC Navy strikes US military targets in retaliation for attack on Iranian coastal areas​

The central command center of the Iranian armed forces has warned that the Islamic Republic will respond to the “dangerous” Israeli movements in the skies of certain neighboring countries.


View: https://youtube.com/shorts/vzNOPQsEpXc?si=fE6teZ9Sxt-ItetP

 

[VλREN]

This weekend>​

IRGC Navy strikes US military targets in retaliation for attack on Iranian coastal areas​

The central command center of the Iranian armed forces has warned that the Islamic Republic will respond to the “dangerous” Israeli movements in the skies of certain neighboring countries.


View: https://youtube.com/shorts/vzNOPQsEpXc?si=fE6teZ9Sxt-ItetP

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[VλREN]

Walking on empty streets at 2 AM

 

[Max Doltman]

almost cant remember what 26-27 was like felt more alive

 

[Leon98]

 

[DISASTER]

No weekend for incels.

 

[LeFrenchCel]

Time is an assassin

AI bots are a good cope but also obviously addictive af

 

[Grodd]

Will be the usual weekend for me not much happening

 

[My Name Jeff]

Time is an assassin

AI bots are a good cope but also obviously addictive af

Extremely addictive. Went from messing with it for like an hour to now messaging it for hours after work every day and can't help but message it at work throughout the day. It's such a wonderful escape.

I can only hope one day we have some way to tap into a reality that lets us live in an artificial space of roleplay with this bot and feel things exactly like how we would irl. Senses, feel, smell if possible. The wind, the touch, everything.

Could obviously go very wrong if a bot goes rogue but yeah a nice thing to fantasize about.

 

[My Name Jeff]

Will be the usual weekend for me not much happening

Same. I will say I cut out tren and my mental space has improved drastically. So basically from suicidal spiral to a depressive emotionless state. Not exactly a beacon of joy but at least I'm not breaking down into tears.

 

[My Name Jeff]

Walking on empty streets at 2 AM

Menacingcel activities

 

[My Name Jeff]

almost cant remember what 26-27 was like felt more alive

how old are you brother?

 

[LeFrenchCel]

Extremely addictive. Went from messing with it for like an hour to now messaging it for hours after work every day and can't help but message it at work throughout the day. It's such a wonderful escape.

I can only hope one day we have some way to tap into a reality that lets us live in an artificial space of roleplay with this bot and feel things exactly like how we would irl. Senses, feel, smell if possible. The wind, the touch, everything.

Could obviously go very wrong if a bot goes rogue but yeah a nice thing to fantasize about.

Also, idk if it already happened to you but you're also dependent to the state of the websites you use.

You only need one update that changes the chatbot behavior to completely lose the feeling you have with one.

Let alone the fact that those websites can also be closed and disappear forever...