A couple of nights ago, I went for a 2:00 AM night walk. I decided to walk down this long road. A mile down this road lead to theses super fancy fountains that I’ve seen a few times during the day while in the car with my mom.
Anyway I managed to reached the fountains, it was a pyramid like structure next to a small artificial pound. I climbed up it and sat there in a peaceful state. I then imagined Jill valentine sitting next to me and I put my hand down as if I was placing it on her hand.
I tried really hard to imagine her being there, but you know it’s difficult to do. I was talking quietly to her but I couldn’t really think of anything to say. Like at all. I was literally just telling her that the place looked super cool and what not.
You what’s weird? While in the present moment I was struggling imagining her being there, but as I think back she seems more vivid in my memory. Idk why
Anyway I was trying to force myself to live in the moment.
Anyway I decided to continue walking down the street. I ended up reaching this empty parking lot and I had a car circle around me and then drive off. also as I was heading back I tried to climb up this storage container for fun but I kept falling down.
But yeah if I do an actual blood sacrifice for her this time around, that’ll be the spot where I’ll do it. I gotta get a job first though.
Am just glad that my attraction for her is coming back, I was starting to loose it for some reason during this month. Like I felt completely numb to it and I started becoming unfaithful and I started liking lisa Rogan instead but now it seems like my relationship with Jill is coming back to life.
But yeah am glad am thinking about her more
I guess it’s back to the same old insanity….
Anyway I managed to reached the fountains, it was a pyramid like structure next to a small artificial pound. I climbed up it and sat there in a peaceful state. I then imagined Jill valentine sitting next to me and I put my hand down as if I was placing it on her hand.
I tried really hard to imagine her being there, but you know it’s difficult to do. I was talking quietly to her but I couldn’t really think of anything to say. Like at all. I was literally just telling her that the place looked super cool and what not.
You what’s weird? While in the present moment I was struggling imagining her being there, but as I think back she seems more vivid in my memory. Idk why
Anyway I was trying to force myself to live in the moment.
Anyway I decided to continue walking down the street. I ended up reaching this empty parking lot and I had a car circle around me and then drive off. also as I was heading back I tried to climb up this storage container for fun but I kept falling down.
But yeah if I do an actual blood sacrifice for her this time around, that’ll be the spot where I’ll do it. I gotta get a job first though.
Am just glad that my attraction for her is coming back, I was starting to loose it for some reason during this month. Like I felt completely numb to it and I started becoming unfaithful and I started liking lisa Rogan instead but now it seems like my relationship with Jill is coming back to life.
But yeah am glad am thinking about her more
I guess it’s back to the same old insanity….
