I personally like @CircumcisedClown a lot. His posts are always thought provoking and interesting to read. His pain of getting kiked is too real and relatable as well
I hope he's doing okay. He seems like a really cool guy.
I’ve been inactive. I’ve been going full schizo and becoming concerned that this site is gonna become the target of the next political witchhunt and everyone on here will be named by the gov. It’s already a huge honeypot, and the gov is more than aware it exists.
With the way things are in the gov right now, I can honestly see this place as being labeled a problem so the government can have a slamdunk over “hate” or some shit.
I also have an irrational fear that my friends, family, or colleagues will somehow discover my postings here and track it back to me. I’ve been careful to never disclose much about myself, but it’s a lingering fear. I’ve basically lost all love for my parents/family, but I can’t let them know that cuz I want my inheritance. I just show up to holidays, act polite and tell them I love them, and leave back to my own life. I’m just biding my time until I don’t have to pretend I wanna be around them anymore.
Honestly man, the world and my life are all getting too out of control. When I look back at the last year and a half, I basically accomplished none of my goals except working and had almost no time to myself to pursuit my own endeavors. It feels like the world is falling apart, inflation is kicking my ass, and all I did was commit the crime of being born where and when I did.
But yeah, I finally have some time again, but this place worries me. I like to vent here, but I’m not sure at all I can trust it.
I’m in a strange place because my life isn’t that great, but I’m also starting to realize that it’s probably not gonna get better from here. I don’t know how to cope with “Things aren’t good and they’re really only gonna get worse.” The country is certainly on a decline, and I will likely be well past my prime if it ever resets. I’m not gonna get bigger/faster/stronger as I age at this point. I’m just gonna get older. 30s are gunning at me relatively soon, and who really “upgrades” themselves at 30+ except financially (I’m already in shape, so that’s not an option).
I’m just kinda tired of rolling without any reward at the end. I have money, and I use it to sustain myself and do some fun shit, but to what end? I see why older guys start to lose their fire. So yeah, just rolling, another cog in the unfixable machine. I could try to betabux some tall, attractive woman and raise a Chad, uncut son, but why bother? There will still be Chads born without me. I was at a highschool basketball tournament recently, and trust me, there’s enough young Chads to go around already. I was talking to a team from Canada full of uber-tall, white, athletic, presumably uncut zoomies (cuz Canada), and I couldn’t help but think, “I wonder if these kids realize how insanely lucky they got.” Probably.
Just gonna accept I missed the bus and live my unexceptional, overly-comfortable, kinda fucked life. I guess that’s what I was already doing. I just hope I don’t end up getting a knock on my door cuz I like to shitpost on the weird blue site.
