After graduating as a pathetic virgin, I stopped trying at all. No more learning languages, orbiting foids, forced socializing, reading, therapy, swimming, social media, eating healthy, meditation, practicing PUA stuff, etc... I tried it all during my 5 years of college and i failed miserably, so, why continue?. I was exhausted anyway. So, i knew i was going to be a pathetic beta virgin male my whole life, and i gave up. I began to smoke weed to cope with the fact that im absolutely pathetic and that i can do absolutely nothing to solve it. I lived in extreme isolation for 3 years just rotting until some months ago i had to move with my parents again. Now at least i hear my parents outside my room, which kind of helps.
Never believe what normies say if you tried and failed. If you tried for YEARS when it was supposed to be easy (young, bluepilled, college...) and could not get even a hug or a kiss, its actually OVER, not like the fucking meme, but really, truly OVER.
All i hope now is to get a job so at least i can lose my virginity before killing myself. But im way too depressed at the moment to keep studying to get the job i have a chance to get. So i will end up killing myself as a friendless virgin. All i wanted was a fucking gf and a family, so my life can have any kind of pourpose, but i am too fucking ugly and aspie, the sexual market is way too unbalanced, and foids are WAAAAAAY too shallow. Its just fucking impossible. I really dont know what i would do if miraculously i decided tomorrow to try again, because i know nothing works
And i went to graduation as a friendless virgin of course. Every one was there with their gf, big families and friends... everyone laughing, taking pics, having fun.... while i was only with my parents, without talking or smiling, just waiting for it to end in a corner. My parents fully realizing how much of a human failure i am, not even trying to talk to anybody. At that point i was very well known as the creepy probably virgin guy that orbited every foid that let him, but gets rejected every single time.... One of my saddest moments.