RoyalOcean
Recruit
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- Joined
- May 20, 2018
- Posts
- 282
So I been talking to this girl for a while and she seemed pretty interested and down for most stuff (e.g sex), I meet up with her in town, she seemed VERY underwhelmed and even disappointed, no hug or anything, just like looked at me (felt so fucking disgusting at this moment in time). So we take bus to hers together, the most fucking awkward time of my life, I was trying so hard to keep a conversation going, but there was little to no effort from her side so I just gave up near the end of the journey.
Finally get to hers, and heres me thinking i can finally get some and get a gf and fool around, but I'm taken to a room with all of her uni mates, so there I am, just sitting there like the worlds biggest dickhead whilst all of her normie friends are talking about the most irrelevant shit. After a good hour and a half of this, the girl finally says "lets go to my room, its more quiet". At this point I was so ecstatic, I was finally gonna get some! We go into her room and then she says "I'm sleepy, so you need to go soon", and within a literal fucking minute I've got my bag and she's showing me out the door.
I can't believe i've been abuse, manipulated, lied to like this. I spent so many hours today just waiting around for her, she even rescheduelled our date to two hours later, so I was basically waiting around n a town i;'ve never been to for fucking HOURS and she didnt fucking care. I put SO much effort in and get walked all over like a fucking dickhead. I feel like the worlds biggest failure and i've just been crying on the train home and its nearly 12 at night and I honestly dont know how to cope with my sadness anymore. I've been straight bawling and people are looking at me but i just cant contain this anymore.
I feel so humiliated, it wasnt even a date, I was friendzoned there and then, I was relegated to just a friend instantly. Sorry for this rambling but I feel like the venting helps. I'm unsure what to do now, it was the only good thing in my life and I fuck it up probably because she doesnt like how I look. I try to better myself so much and i felt like I came along way but I'm still a hideous subhuman scum to every single girl apparently. There was no remorse from her part. I'd spent so much on transport (uber/ bus/ train) and she sends me away and I didnt have a clue where to go or what to do.
Finally get to hers, and heres me thinking i can finally get some and get a gf and fool around, but I'm taken to a room with all of her uni mates, so there I am, just sitting there like the worlds biggest dickhead whilst all of her normie friends are talking about the most irrelevant shit. After a good hour and a half of this, the girl finally says "lets go to my room, its more quiet". At this point I was so ecstatic, I was finally gonna get some! We go into her room and then she says "I'm sleepy, so you need to go soon", and within a literal fucking minute I've got my bag and she's showing me out the door.
I can't believe i've been abuse, manipulated, lied to like this. I spent so many hours today just waiting around for her, she even rescheduelled our date to two hours later, so I was basically waiting around n a town i;'ve never been to for fucking HOURS and she didnt fucking care. I put SO much effort in and get walked all over like a fucking dickhead. I feel like the worlds biggest failure and i've just been crying on the train home and its nearly 12 at night and I honestly dont know how to cope with my sadness anymore. I've been straight bawling and people are looking at me but i just cant contain this anymore.
I feel so humiliated, it wasnt even a date, I was friendzoned there and then, I was relegated to just a friend instantly. Sorry for this rambling but I feel like the venting helps. I'm unsure what to do now, it was the only good thing in my life and I fuck it up probably because she doesnt like how I look. I try to better myself so much and i felt like I came along way but I'm still a hideous subhuman scum to every single girl apparently. There was no remorse from her part. I'd spent so much on transport (uber/ bus/ train) and she sends me away and I didnt have a clue where to go or what to do.