I was foolish and forgot why i don't associate myself with normies, i was kinda forced as in a job you either socialize or you're the weird guy. Welp to be honest you'll be the weird guy regardless but you won't be as weird.
So i got close with a couple fo chads, which are quite nice people. Better than i if i may say.
I was convinced to go to a university graduation kind of party, with showcased alcohol a lot of girls and drunk guys, I knew, i knew that i should not go. Everything in my mind screamed, don't go. And behold, one of the worst nights of my latest years.
The only thing i did was keep one chad company. if i think about it, i fucked his chances to get with girls LMAO as i was between a group of girls and for sure i was not going to talk with them.
After i left him alone to... i don't even remember what i was doing as i was trying to drink as much alcohol as i could as to pass time faster. This guy started talking with a lot of girls and they all wanted to fuck him. Literally a girl said to his face "you're so handsome". And this bitch was telling me how handsome he was and whatnot. And i was like, who the fuck cares?
I managed to count it, he talked with 7 girls. Of which 6 showed clear hints of wanting him. 2 explicitly talked about how hot he was and 1 told him they should meet afterwards to smoke weed.
I won't try going to hostile anti virgin environments anymore, there's nothing to be gained there.
So i kinda understand, all of my friends are more attactive than me. And here begs the question. Is it better to associate yourself with people, who you knowningly know have it waay better than you, and to be compared constantly.... Or just be alone?
Today i stil prefer to associate with people, but i don't go to places or events that i know will hurt me
