A girl I like who also used to like me has choosen some piece of shit "chad" who lies and acts nice to get girls over me and it makes me fucking angry. We went out tonight with a few friends and seeing them cuddle and him touching her right at the counter makes me so angry I just went away. I can't stand it anymore I'm so angry seeing everyone happy around me with people to spend time with.... I just wanna cry and also tear apart everyone I consider as my "friends", people I just spend time with because I'm going to be alone otherwise. People who look down on me and just spend time with me to boost their ego... I'm not ugly. I may be broke, but I work out. I'm a Booker for Bands and musicians, so I have a pretty adventurous work life. But I'm FUCKING BROWN IN FUCKING GERMANY!!! IT SUCKS!!!! They always choose the whites over. Nazi Germany never ended.... I feel like I'm never going to be respected or heard as long as I don't use violence.
