I'm 22 years old now, I've basically been a tier above sub5 my whole life and i've felt it, I've only really recently come to terms with how over it is.
I had a redpill phase where I thought I just needed to say the right things to get girls to desire me, I had a phase where I thought money and status would get them to desire me, the last final "cope" was looksmaxxing and thinking that would somehow turn me into an 8/10 or a gigachad.
I've basically given up all hope, i'm invisible to women, i'm not desirable, there's no gym for my face or bone structure or skin color, it is what it is. I'm not gonna pay for pussy or become an oofy doofy I think doing that would send me into a suicidal episode. Moreover I'm realizing that I'll never feel "accepted" or part of the neurotypical club. I can pretend to be like them but it takes so much effort and I feel exhausted trying to fake my enthusiasm for small talk and whatever bullshit neurotypicals are interested in nowadays. I rarely encounter abstract thinkers or people that have an understanding of those that have sensitive minds. It's one thing to be completely undesirable, it's another thing to feel alone and alien even in a room full of other people. It really makes life feel isolating and pointless and unfulfilling at times like that.
Life is suffering for some people and for others it's mostly decent. I just ended up in a life where I suffer socially and mentally moreso than the average people. anyone else relate? how do you guys cope like this? I've always had things that make me feel fulfilled my whole life, niche interests, and I'm starting to turn to those more. I've started to pickup react.js and I have some webapp projects I work on for fun, I'm learning to make music, etc. Trying to focus on the beauty in my life and minimize suffering the way schopenhauer recommended, doing stuff to keep my quality of life high so I don't focus on the suffering of life and end up roping. Is living like this sustainable? any old niggas in here that have been coping in life and have advice?
I had a redpill phase where I thought I just needed to say the right things to get girls to desire me, I had a phase where I thought money and status would get them to desire me, the last final "cope" was looksmaxxing and thinking that would somehow turn me into an 8/10 or a gigachad.
I've basically given up all hope, i'm invisible to women, i'm not desirable, there's no gym for my face or bone structure or skin color, it is what it is. I'm not gonna pay for pussy or become an oofy doofy I think doing that would send me into a suicidal episode. Moreover I'm realizing that I'll never feel "accepted" or part of the neurotypical club. I can pretend to be like them but it takes so much effort and I feel exhausted trying to fake my enthusiasm for small talk and whatever bullshit neurotypicals are interested in nowadays. I rarely encounter abstract thinkers or people that have an understanding of those that have sensitive minds. It's one thing to be completely undesirable, it's another thing to feel alone and alien even in a room full of other people. It really makes life feel isolating and pointless and unfulfilling at times like that.
Life is suffering for some people and for others it's mostly decent. I just ended up in a life where I suffer socially and mentally moreso than the average people. anyone else relate? how do you guys cope like this? I've always had things that make me feel fulfilled my whole life, niche interests, and I'm starting to turn to those more. I've started to pickup react.js and I have some webapp projects I work on for fun, I'm learning to make music, etc. Trying to focus on the beauty in my life and minimize suffering the way schopenhauer recommended, doing stuff to keep my quality of life high so I don't focus on the suffering of life and end up roping. Is living like this sustainable? any old niggas in here that have been coping in life and have advice?
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