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wide_eyed_optimism_
Just pass me the rope
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It's not decided yet but let's be real: I will not necessarily be able to improve my looks to the point of becoming chadlite. I have money to eat well and live decently which I haven't been doing so far but now I will, a chill job that allows to sleep more than enough time (which again I'll start doing instead of browsing the internet and shit), and about to start drugging myself somehow to deal with the anxiety (again, not to cope, but to improve the situation, because being 24/7 nervous isn't healthy and makes me look like a piece of shit) idk if I will get Jew pills from my doctor, weed, or what, but I will do something. I have a theory that stuff like this (stress, diet) can go a longer way than people thinks so that's my focus for now.
I also fortunately have the income to be able to get a loan from the bank for surgery, if needed.
If none of that works it's the rope. And there's also something that I find more scary than the rope: settling for this life out of fear of dying. When I get scared of the rope, I sometimes find myself lying to myself as in "maybe high tier normie would be enough" or "maybe if I betabux I'd at least have a family" fuck that. We all know the only life worth living is Chad's, which I will never be because Chad by definition wouldn't need to looksmaxxx in the first place, but I can be Chadlite who gets Chad's crumbs, and that can be good enough but that's as low as I'll go.
I also fortunately have the income to be able to get a loan from the bank for surgery, if needed.
If none of that works it's the rope. And there's also something that I find more scary than the rope: settling for this life out of fear of dying. When I get scared of the rope, I sometimes find myself lying to myself as in "maybe high tier normie would be enough" or "maybe if I betabux I'd at least have a family" fuck that. We all know the only life worth living is Chad's, which I will never be because Chad by definition wouldn't need to looksmaxxx in the first place, but I can be Chadlite who gets Chad's crumbs, and that can be good enough but that's as low as I'll go.