
FebrezeCel
GymCel
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- Joined
- Aug 24, 2023
- Posts
- 473
why is it so hard to get help when you want help. I guess all therapy is, is a blue pulled fag gaslighting me forever. But man the way they listen to me and ask me stupid shit makes me question if there is any hope. I don’t have any hope, I am depressed, negative, nihalistic, drained, why the fuck are you asking me stupid shit like my goals. The goals they asked me for were little. Getting friends is not going to solve all the other problems. My goals are on a much bigger scale, tiny goals won’t fix shit. My goal is to get rid of feeling depressed and suicidal thoughts. I might be a retard for thinking I can get help. But when I have no hope, I want any help I can get. Perhaps it is going to be a waste of time. Not only that, these cock suckers are booked. Fuck this shit, I don’t want an online meeting with a therapist. I want real life, I can talk to chat gpt as my online therapist if I wanted to. I want someone to look at me as I talk about myself. Feel connection to the pain I feel, and suffering I feel. The therapist could be jerking off and watching porn and not even listening to me and I wouldn’t know. The system seems fucking goofy and a waste of time. Let’s just where it takes me, right now I don’t see any hope. Matter of fact they made it sound like I am better of doing therapy on myself. Stupid foid didn’t even listen to me properly considering she didn’t understand my goals on what I asked. I guess I’ll just be a shitty fucking loser forever until I die of something. No hope = death. Why would I continue battling everyday if there is no end goal.