Genetic Error
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5'5 here, decent face, reasonably NT irl
literally no girl wants me because of my height, ive had girls literally laugh at me when meeting on first date, tell me to go home, mention it first thing, or just be extremely blunt for the rest of the date and block me afterwards
if i ever mentioned my real height in online dating 100% of girls would immediately stop speaking or immediately become blunt as fuck for 1-3 messages then stop speaking
lifts dont work. its obvious.
so ive given up on dating.
i had friends in school, i fit in reasonably well since i compensated(coped) a lot in other ways. but then when joining college i was immediately rejected by my group of friends as they didnt want to be seen with the 5'5 whiteboy manlet so had to drop out of college
any friends ive had after that never wanted to go clubbing with me, probably cos they didnt wanna be seen with the 5'5 manlet. never wanted to do things with me. and eventually rejected me out of their lives.
ive had a few jobs in pubs, office etc over the last few years. and since the first day i can tell no one respects me, i see the smirks from one person to another one.
the smirk or look from 1 person to the other is something that happens to me A LOT. to the point i know exactly when its gonna happen or who is gonna do it. when turning around and walking away from people i will look back at the right time or look in the mirror. half the time i catch them in the act and give them a dirty as fuck stare and they look surprised i caught them.
i thought i could just be friends with the normal guys there and talk about guy shit. because despite my height. im a normal semi thugmaxxed guy. but none of them wanted to talk to me, they'd even rather speak to the 5'8 landwhale ugly as fuck pale goth girl than me. theyd all gang up on me. even on my first day at one job. a fat 1/10 landwhale completely ignored me as i walked past her behind the bar so its obvious i worked there. and when i tried to talk to her or asked her name she looked in disgust and gave me 1 word replies. and the entire time i was there she never said 1 word to me. but she would speak to literally everyone else happy as fuck and so nice.
and another time i got put to work with new people ive never worked with, 2 fat 30/40 year old women and we were literally all standing 1 metre away from eachother working on the bar and they wouldnt say anything to me. if my mom whos the same age as them was working with a new 21 year old guy, shed be really nice and welcoming and talking to them regardless of what they looked like. but these women just specifically went out of their way to not talk to me. even though i literally havent done anything wrong. even the alpha male manager realised this and came up to me to talk for a few mins (i think sort of signalling this guy is ok to talk to, hes not a social outcast, i like him) but they still didnt.
even at one point i was working with that alpha male manager and he would try bully me for my height infront of everyone and everyone would laugh. i took it for 1 day but then for the following weeks i would come back at him twice as hard for anything he says to me. i would take the piss out of his balding(no one would laugh ofc) and he would say shit like 'everyone gets old, but not all men are created equally(referencing my height)'
and he say shit like girls want 'tall dark and handsome' 3 things that he is, and the 3 things that i am not. and say how when people are allowed out of lockdown, all the thugmaxxed people will come down and pick on me.
so i would go home and legit sit there in notes on my phone disecting everything wrong with him so i could use it the next day
one time we had like a full on extremely deep roast session in the bar infront of everyone and it was awkward af and i felt like crying cos the guy literally picked apart my life and disected how my height will effect my life, with extreme precision. infront of everyone. i did say some deep as fck shit back.
last 2 jobs ive had at the end one of the girls will literally make up a straight lie about me and it'll be social death awkward as fuck and i can tell everyone laughing at me and doesnt want to associate with me. theyre fucking evil. i dont even remember the lies they come up with it was only stupid but still an attempt to segregate me from the group even more. i basically left them 2 jobs due to social death.
i felt extremely bad vibes off literally every friend, girl, coworker ive had or most customers ive had to deal with.
genuinely wish i was never born. but im too pussy to rope and dont want to miss out on a lifetime of comfymaxxing and dopamine from my favourite rots
literally no girl wants me because of my height, ive had girls literally laugh at me when meeting on first date, tell me to go home, mention it first thing, or just be extremely blunt for the rest of the date and block me afterwards
if i ever mentioned my real height in online dating 100% of girls would immediately stop speaking or immediately become blunt as fuck for 1-3 messages then stop speaking
lifts dont work. its obvious.
so ive given up on dating.
i had friends in school, i fit in reasonably well since i compensated(coped) a lot in other ways. but then when joining college i was immediately rejected by my group of friends as they didnt want to be seen with the 5'5 whiteboy manlet so had to drop out of college
any friends ive had after that never wanted to go clubbing with me, probably cos they didnt wanna be seen with the 5'5 manlet. never wanted to do things with me. and eventually rejected me out of their lives.
ive had a few jobs in pubs, office etc over the last few years. and since the first day i can tell no one respects me, i see the smirks from one person to another one.
the smirk or look from 1 person to the other is something that happens to me A LOT. to the point i know exactly when its gonna happen or who is gonna do it. when turning around and walking away from people i will look back at the right time or look in the mirror. half the time i catch them in the act and give them a dirty as fuck stare and they look surprised i caught them.
i thought i could just be friends with the normal guys there and talk about guy shit. because despite my height. im a normal semi thugmaxxed guy. but none of them wanted to talk to me, they'd even rather speak to the 5'8 landwhale ugly as fuck pale goth girl than me. theyd all gang up on me. even on my first day at one job. a fat 1/10 landwhale completely ignored me as i walked past her behind the bar so its obvious i worked there. and when i tried to talk to her or asked her name she looked in disgust and gave me 1 word replies. and the entire time i was there she never said 1 word to me. but she would speak to literally everyone else happy as fuck and so nice.
and another time i got put to work with new people ive never worked with, 2 fat 30/40 year old women and we were literally all standing 1 metre away from eachother working on the bar and they wouldnt say anything to me. if my mom whos the same age as them was working with a new 21 year old guy, shed be really nice and welcoming and talking to them regardless of what they looked like. but these women just specifically went out of their way to not talk to me. even though i literally havent done anything wrong. even the alpha male manager realised this and came up to me to talk for a few mins (i think sort of signalling this guy is ok to talk to, hes not a social outcast, i like him) but they still didnt.
even at one point i was working with that alpha male manager and he would try bully me for my height infront of everyone and everyone would laugh. i took it for 1 day but then for the following weeks i would come back at him twice as hard for anything he says to me. i would take the piss out of his balding(no one would laugh ofc) and he would say shit like 'everyone gets old, but not all men are created equally(referencing my height)'
and he say shit like girls want 'tall dark and handsome' 3 things that he is, and the 3 things that i am not. and say how when people are allowed out of lockdown, all the thugmaxxed people will come down and pick on me.
so i would go home and legit sit there in notes on my phone disecting everything wrong with him so i could use it the next day
one time we had like a full on extremely deep roast session in the bar infront of everyone and it was awkward af and i felt like crying cos the guy literally picked apart my life and disected how my height will effect my life, with extreme precision. infront of everyone. i did say some deep as fck shit back.
last 2 jobs ive had at the end one of the girls will literally make up a straight lie about me and it'll be social death awkward as fuck and i can tell everyone laughing at me and doesnt want to associate with me. theyre fucking evil. i dont even remember the lies they come up with it was only stupid but still an attempt to segregate me from the group even more. i basically left them 2 jobs due to social death.
i felt extremely bad vibes off literally every friend, girl, coworker ive had or most customers ive had to deal with.
genuinely wish i was never born. but im too pussy to rope and dont want to miss out on a lifetime of comfymaxxing and dopamine from my favourite rots
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