IamJacksBrokenHeart
.
-
- Joined
- May 7, 2018
- Posts
- 12,878
i feel like i completely lost control
i lost all autonomy
Im like a robot
a slave to my instincts
just going through the motions
each day each night
each post each Thread i make
like a zombie
My brain is completely atrohpied
just operating on it's basic functions
sleep all day
stare at the screen all night
eat shitty food from a can
repeat
repeat
i need to consume more
try to stimulate my fucked up dopamine receptors
hoping for a response
i just want to feel that shiver down my spine again
want to feel like im actually alive
want to lie to myself until i believe it
i , i , i , i ,i
i want to be comfortable
be happy with this fucked up way of Life
cause i can't face reality
i tried
so i will continue searching for new copes
new ways to erase the pain
to immerse myself into something
anything that makes the pain go away
i don't want to look into the mirror
im afraid of the rope
i lost all autonomy
Im like a robot
a slave to my instincts
just going through the motions
each day each night
each post each Thread i make
like a zombie
My brain is completely atrohpied
just operating on it's basic functions
sleep all day
stare at the screen all night
eat shitty food from a can
repeat
repeat
i need to consume more
try to stimulate my fucked up dopamine receptors
hoping for a response
i just want to feel that shiver down my spine again
want to feel like im actually alive
want to lie to myself until i believe it
i , i , i , i ,i
i want to be comfortable
be happy with this fucked up way of Life
cause i can't face reality
i tried
so i will continue searching for new copes
new ways to erase the pain
to immerse myself into something
anything that makes the pain go away
i don't want to look into the mirror
im afraid of the rope