Venting For the first time in my life I truly have the willpower to change

[Incel_marxist_carni]

I have told myself everyday for the last 10 years that I'm gonna improve my habits the following day, never did... All I have done is use my phone from the moment I wake up until the moment I fall asleep. incel or not this no way to live, it's pure misery. Now as an adult I can't really justify wasting my time on YouTube, mobile games, porn. You like to think there's good things about it, but no, all of it is garbage.

Wanna almost completely quit phone usage, I'll probably still use it 20 minutes a day just for this site to make a post or read some threads. I bought a feature phone with mp3 player and Bluetooth simply so I don't have to rely on my smartphone for anything, Yes I'm so addicted I can't have control over what I do on my smartphone.

Gonna quit porn. gonna improve my eating habits. Gonna start exercising more at home (currently I just do a couple of push-up when I feel like it to improve my tolerance for it, has actually helped, doesn't hurt anywhere near as much as when I started doing it.

I quit school this year and I won't change my mind, Not gonna try getting a job either, fuck school and wage slave jobs that you literally have to beg for like the slave you are.

Gonna start learning skills that I can make money off in the future. Also gonna start improving my handwriting which is currently awful. Gonna fix my messed up speech with practice, gonna improve my English grammar.

Note: this thread is not about trying to ascend, this just about improving my life and making sure I don't suffer more in the future. I'm still gonna be an incel with no friends (I have never had a friend).

Do you guys relate to the way I'm feeling/what I wanna do?

 

[zangano1]

It happens to me all the time, it lasts like a week at best, then I go back to rotting. But good luck.

 

[Rixinuj]

We'll welcome you back in a few days

 

[Incedel]

We'll welcome you back in a few days

kek, but its true

 

[BornToLose]

Sure you do, pal. Sure you do.

 

[The Enforcer]

This was me for most of my life tbh. Spent the majority of it trying to successmaxx in plenty of areas to become the "best version of myself" as normies say. Sadly it didn't work for me. I remained ugly as shit and it left me rejected regardless. Hopefully this route works for you though. Always nice to see success. Bettering yourself for yourself is always a viable option. Fingers crossed you garner some successes from this. Based and Whitepilled

 

[lemon21]

Hope it works for you, the best version of myself was subpar and at this point it hardly matters cause there's not much to "maxx".

This was me for most of my life tbh. Spent the majority of it trying to successmaxx in plenty of areas to become the "best version of myself" as normies say. Sadly it didn't work for me. I remained ugly as shit and it left me rejected regardless. Hopefully this route works for you though. Always nice to see success. Bettering yourself for yourself is always a viable option. Fingers crossed you garner some successes from this. Based and Whitepilled

Same tbh, the best version of myself was me on my last year of HS. That was still not good enough, so if that was the case... how will i get the drive to improve myself now? there's no chance.

 

[IncelsNeverCry]

Yeah I get those phases but it never leads to anything, I just waste a year of half a year then it's back to minimum wage

 

[Incel_marxist_carni]

This was me for most of my life tbh. Spent the majority of it trying to successmaxx in plenty of areas to become the "best version of myself" as normies say. Sadly it didn't work for me. I remained ugly as shit and it left me rejected regardless. Hopefully this route works for you though. Always nice to see success. Bettering yourself for yourself is always a viable option. Fingers crossed you garner some successes from this. Based and Whitepilled

Thanks, I appreciate your response a lot and I mean it.

Even if it seems very unlikely to you, I hope the best for you aswell.

Even if things seems impossible, I believe there's always certain very rare opportunities you can take that will make all the difference. but what do I know, I'm probably insane.

 

[The Enforcer]

Same tbh, the best version of myself was me on my last year of HS. That was still not good enough, so if that was the case... how will i get the drive to improve myself now? there's no chance.

Sadly never mattered just how much I "bettered" myself. My abilities, my beliefs, my attitude, my personality. All things that have changed a lot, several times over the course of my life. The one constant, is how fuck ugly I look. And the only repeated reason that people have given too me in regards to why they dislike me.

I find it brutal that, online, if I don't put up photos of myself, getting along with people, women included, is stupidly simple. It's no effort at all to mingle and get along with people. Get close to them. Yet in 100% of cases where I had these close friendships online with women, 100% of the time, a photo of myself ended the friendship right there. Didn't matter if i'd been speaking to them for 2 years, or if they said shit like "I wont care how you look " tier shit. The photo ended every single one.

Deluded normies question why some of us accept the blackpill... Yet never ask themselves "perhaps their experiences are completely inline with it". A good looking man can afford to be bluepilled. Because he's already won. But ironically, the fact that he has such success is a blackpill.

 

[The Enforcer]

Thanks, I appreciate your response a lot and I mean it.

Even if it seems very unlikely to you, I hope the best for you aswell.

Even if things seems impossible, I believe there's always certain very rare opportunities you can take that will make all the difference. but what do I know, I'm probably insane.

I always wish the best for people tbh. I think the world would be a lot better if everyone had the opportunity to flourish. Sadly it's not the case, and for reject males, we are one of the few categories of people left that society is allowed to despise with impunity. Human history shows a need for people to have a group to hate. For whatever reason, humans thrive of a dislike of others. They will falsely categorize them, blame them and create entire narratives about them just to justify that prejudice.

I have little hope that this will change in our lifetime. Certainly not mine because I cant imagine my organs lasting more than a few years at most. But I hope that one day, the ugly, the rejected etc. Will become understood and cared for. As currently, we are needlessly disparaged and hated on. A hot guy will do something bad, and we will feel the effects of that. We get the blame. Hell, here's a paper that notes just that. The unattractive get treated poorly due to the actions of the attractive.

https://journals.sagepub.com/doi/abs/10.1177/1948550615584196?journalCode=sppa

 

[Epedaphic]

Gonna start learning skills that I can make money off in the future.

What skills?

I can relate but maybe not fully. I’ve also been wanting to change for a long time now but just keep making excuses. So I can’t really say I’m finally going to change. Although I want to

 

[IceStorm]

We'll welcome you back in a few days

 

[lemon21]

Sadly never mattered just how much I "bettered" myself. My abilities, my beliefs, my attitude, my personality. All things that have changed a lot, several times over the course of my life. The one constant, is how fuck ugly I look. And the only repeated reason that people have given too me in regards to why they dislike me.

I find it brutal that, online, if I don't put up photos of myself, getting along with people, women included, is stupidly simple. It's no effort at all to mingle and get along with people. Get close to them. Yet in 100% of cases where I had these close friendships online with women, 100% of the time, a photo of myself ended the friendship right there. Didn't matter if i'd been speaking to them for 2 years, or if they said shit like "I wont care how you look " tier shit. The photo ended every single one.

Deluded normies question why some of us accept the blackpill... Yet never ask themselves "perhaps their experiences are completely inline with it". A good looking man can afford to be bluepilled. Because he's already won. But ironically, the fact that he has such success is a blackpill.

Yeah, it's such an injustice. No one wants to be chad, but at least make our efforts matter at least a little bit. I had so many experiences like that regarding women, in my case they never made an effort to want to interact with me. It was like talking to pieces of wood or rocks, then when a tall dude or a somewhat attractive guy came they became social butterflies... Yeaah right.

I truly, truly don't know why i even bother interacting with women at the workplace... may be to not come off as a weirdo? But i'm so sick and tired of this stupid game of life in which the things you do hardly matter and you have to "cope" yourself out of your dreams in order to live a "happy" life.

Did something happen that truly killed your motivation to stop trying. Or was just a gradual thing that reached a point in which you could just not be bothered anymore? I feel like i'm really close to that point, i'm utterly tired of life and it's stupid shit. All the ammount of gaslighting too, it's stupid and boring and i'm sick of it.

It's so utterly ridiculous that the course of your life depends on a dice roll, and what's more ridiculous is that not many people are truly incel. Thus we fuckers are the shittiest of the shit.

 

[BornToLose]

A good looking man can afford to be bluepilled. Because he's already won. But ironically, the fact that he has such success is a blackpill.

Well put.

 

[vu79sOiwUAGG]

i agree with you brocel, very often i feel like i dont fit in here at all. i go to the gym regularly, play musical instruments, and actually travel solo a lot(big fan of hiking alone), and spend a lot of time outdoors, and i actually have a job-minimum wage but it helps me survive. this is shit normies do but my philosophy is to just live as fulfilling of a life that i can, because i came into this world alone, lived alone and will one day die alone. i am a complete outcast and face bad treatment/discrimination/prejudice from being a deathnic/incel/manlet every single day so i have stopped bothering even trying to integrate into soyciety. i have no belonging, nowhere i fit in, nowhere to call home. so i just live this life with me at the center of it. i have no friends, no family, no real connection with anyone around me

my goal is to one day buy a car and just live out of it like a nomad, leeching off of society for internet, water, etc. just park it in a forest and listen to the sounds and sleep peacefully. no normie chad stacy nigger jew curry jbw smv becky etc etc BULLSHIT

good on you, do something that makes YOUR life improve. dont do ANYTHING that solely benefits other people-like learning how to do magic tricks, etc. fuck the society that turned their backs on us

 

[The Enforcer]

Yeah, it's such an injustice. No one wants to be chad, but at least make our efforts matter at least a little bit. I had so many experiences like that regarding women, in my case they never made an effort to want to interact with me. It was like talking to pieces of wood or rocks, then when a tall dude or a somewhat attractive guy came they became social butterflies... Yeaah right.

I truly, truly don't know why i even bother interacting with women at the workplace... may be to not come off as a weirdo? But i'm so sick and tired of this stupid game of life in which the things you do hardly matter and you have to "cope" yourself out of your dreams in order to live a "happy" life.

Did something happen that truly killed your motivation to stop trying. Or was just a gradual thing that reached a point in which you could just not be bothered anymore? I feel like i'm really close to that point, i'm utterly tired of life and it's stupid shit. All the ammount of gaslighting too, it's stupid and boring and i'm sick of it.

It's so utterly ridiculous that the course of your life depends on a dice roll, and what's more ridiculous is that not many people are truly incel. Thus we fuckers are the shittiest of the shit.

Being treated with basic human decency shouldn't be much to ask but apparently in our cases, due to the social status quo. It is. Also asking people to acknowledge this is also too much to ask...

 

[The Enforcer]

Well put.

based

 

[lemon21]

Being treated with basic human decency shouldn't be much to ask but apparently in our cases, due to the social status quo. It is. Also asking people to acknowledge this is also too much to ask...

Men are more or less acceptable when they're not doing their stupid hierarchy games, but women don't even care about you if you don't pass a looks treshold. Man like, i don't even care i know you won't fuck me. But cant you at least pretend you are a decent person? jesus.

 

[BornToLose]

Men are more or less acceptable when they're not doing their stupid hierarchy games, but women don't even care about you if you don't pass a looks treshold. Man like, i don't even care i know you won't fuck me. But cant you at least pretend you are a decent person? jesus.

JFL.