Absolute Garbage
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During downtime at work I usually hang out with my coworkers who happen to be mostly foids. I spend most of my work day with one particular foid mainly because she's friendly in general and seems to be willing to put up with talking to me--at least while she's being paid at work. Anyway, over the course of our working together, I often end up in embarrassing situations, but it would be hard to not talk/hang out cause then work would be way too boring tbh. Here are my recollections of a few semi-recent instances in word-salad form:
We were hanging out after work (but still at workplace) when one of her chad-lite (idk if actually chad-lite cause I'm shitty at rating male attractiveness) buddies shows up. They start discussing their weekend plans which usually involves going out to clubs or some music festivals and other socially normal people things. Her discussing plans with others in front of me like that happens a lot so it usually doesn't bother me much, despite it being a little awkward. This time, however, her friend was like "[Absolute Garbage], you should come as well". The moment he said that, I'll never forget the look on my coworker's face. She looked absolutely petrified. I'm too autistic and high-inhib to even consider going clubbing with them, but I asked him about it anyway. He mentioned that there would be a lot of girls there etc. and then he saw my coworker's face and he kinda trailed off and said goodbye. I guess she would feel embarrassed to show up somewhere like that and be even remotely associated with me.
Then there was this other day when the same coworker was telling me that it was her birthday soon and that she was going to have a party with a bunch of people from work. Then, she tells me "Hey, so for my birthday present... Can you take over my shift?". And of course my dumb ass says "Sure". Seconds later, she turns to our other coworker who was listening in and practically begs him to go to her party. She literally makes him confirm that he's going several times. Once again, something I'm obviously too awkard and high-inhib to consider showing up to, so I'm not upset about not being asked. But it just seems so strange that she's so comfortable doing that in front of me. Then I realized it wasn't strange cause she probably doesn't see me as a human with feelings due to how unattractive I am. But yeah, it legit played out like one of those high school movies where the nerd gets humiliated while the girl seems unaware.
So apparently my dating life--or more accurately, complete lack of one--has recently been the topic of lunch conversations at work. This basically started when that same foid coworker jokingly said that it would be funny to see me come back from an event I was going to go to with a gf. Obviously, since foids have 0 desire for guys like me, I told her that it wasn't going to happen.
Of course, she follows up with that usual "Oh you could totally get a gf if you tried. You haven't even tried any of the dating apps/sites" when it's obvious that if I tried doing that I'd just end up refreshing an empty inbox for a few weeks before giving up. I let her know this, and she goes "Oh it's hard for me too teehee" (wat). I tell her that that's absolutely not the case since all she has to do is sign up for any account and there would be 100s of messages in her inbox the moment she hits the submit button. To which, she replies "Yeah but I probably won't like any of those guys". This "banter" continues on for a while as more coworkers start showing up because my coworker would randomly stop them and tell them "[Absolute Garbage] is getting a girlfriend soon", to which they would grin and join the discussion to hear how I was supposedly going to accomplish this impossible task.
Ultimately, I end up dropping my version of the blackpill, which is basically the incels.is blackpill with all the despair, hopelessness, and depression, but without the entitlement, violence and ER shit. Of course, it ends up amusing my coworkers even more. I tell them about the imbalance in dating and tell them about a bunch of statistics e.g. 70+ million more men than women, high ethnic male celibacy rate vs every other demographic, response rates, attractiveness polls, etc. The foids basically end up going "Well just don't be a statistic". Some of the normie guys at least recognize the futility of my situation, but proceed to go "Nowadays everything is legal so it doesn't have to be a woman." I proceed to respond to them by letting them know that gay marriage became legal partially based on the argument that sexual orientation was inherent and not a choice. And then they respond with anecdotes of people they know who were married, then divorced, and then married someone from the same sex... After having this conversation with the same coworkers (usually plus another coworker or two that wasn't privy to it earlier) I just gave up and said I wasn't going to talk about it anymore
Anyway, not sure why I posted this. I'm prob gonna go rope soon cause honestly my life situation has been untenable for far too long. At first I thought I wanted to leave something behind by leaving this on the site, but then I realized as an incel it's probably better that everything about me be completely obliterated anyway, so I guess that was just to vent. Peace out
We were hanging out after work (but still at workplace) when one of her chad-lite (idk if actually chad-lite cause I'm shitty at rating male attractiveness) buddies shows up. They start discussing their weekend plans which usually involves going out to clubs or some music festivals and other socially normal people things. Her discussing plans with others in front of me like that happens a lot so it usually doesn't bother me much, despite it being a little awkward. This time, however, her friend was like "[Absolute Garbage], you should come as well". The moment he said that, I'll never forget the look on my coworker's face. She looked absolutely petrified. I'm too autistic and high-inhib to even consider going clubbing with them, but I asked him about it anyway. He mentioned that there would be a lot of girls there etc. and then he saw my coworker's face and he kinda trailed off and said goodbye. I guess she would feel embarrassed to show up somewhere like that and be even remotely associated with me.
Then there was this other day when the same coworker was telling me that it was her birthday soon and that she was going to have a party with a bunch of people from work. Then, she tells me "Hey, so for my birthday present... Can you take over my shift?". And of course my dumb ass says "Sure". Seconds later, she turns to our other coworker who was listening in and practically begs him to go to her party. She literally makes him confirm that he's going several times. Once again, something I'm obviously too awkard and high-inhib to consider showing up to, so I'm not upset about not being asked. But it just seems so strange that she's so comfortable doing that in front of me. Then I realized it wasn't strange cause she probably doesn't see me as a human with feelings due to how unattractive I am. But yeah, it legit played out like one of those high school movies where the nerd gets humiliated while the girl seems unaware.
So apparently my dating life--or more accurately, complete lack of one--has recently been the topic of lunch conversations at work. This basically started when that same foid coworker jokingly said that it would be funny to see me come back from an event I was going to go to with a gf. Obviously, since foids have 0 desire for guys like me, I told her that it wasn't going to happen.
Of course, she follows up with that usual "Oh you could totally get a gf if you tried. You haven't even tried any of the dating apps/sites" when it's obvious that if I tried doing that I'd just end up refreshing an empty inbox for a few weeks before giving up. I let her know this, and she goes "Oh it's hard for me too teehee" (wat). I tell her that that's absolutely not the case since all she has to do is sign up for any account and there would be 100s of messages in her inbox the moment she hits the submit button. To which, she replies "Yeah but I probably won't like any of those guys". This "banter" continues on for a while as more coworkers start showing up because my coworker would randomly stop them and tell them "[Absolute Garbage] is getting a girlfriend soon", to which they would grin and join the discussion to hear how I was supposedly going to accomplish this impossible task.
Ultimately, I end up dropping my version of the blackpill, which is basically the incels.is blackpill with all the despair, hopelessness, and depression, but without the entitlement, violence and ER shit. Of course, it ends up amusing my coworkers even more. I tell them about the imbalance in dating and tell them about a bunch of statistics e.g. 70+ million more men than women, high ethnic male celibacy rate vs every other demographic, response rates, attractiveness polls, etc. The foids basically end up going "Well just don't be a statistic". Some of the normie guys at least recognize the futility of my situation, but proceed to go "Nowadays everything is legal so it doesn't have to be a woman." I proceed to respond to them by letting them know that gay marriage became legal partially based on the argument that sexual orientation was inherent and not a choice. And then they respond with anecdotes of people they know who were married, then divorced, and then married someone from the same sex... After having this conversation with the same coworkers (usually plus another coworker or two that wasn't privy to it earlier) I just gave up and said I wasn't going to talk about it anymore
Anyway, not sure why I posted this. I'm prob gonna go rope soon cause honestly my life situation has been untenable for far too long. At first I thought I wanted to leave something behind by leaving this on the site, but then I realized as an incel it's probably better that everything about me be completely obliterated anyway, so I guess that was just to vent. Peace out