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Aspergcel
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Remember my oneitis? The girl I sang a love song for? Well, I think I’m finally going to let go of her. I’m actually happy I didn’t follow her when I saw her at the grocery store a few days ago. If I had done that, I’m sure she would have reported me to the police. She already has enough evidence to make the police file charges against me. It’s just that she hasn’t decided to report me yet. Last time I actually interacted with her was in January. When I tried to speak to her, she gave me one final warning before she would report me to the police. After that, I decided to not bother her anymore. I would just stalk her online, but I wouldn’t confront her in real life because I didn’t want to get reported. It’s a good thing that I haven’t interacted with her since January. If I had tried to bother her again after that, there is a high chance that she would’ve reported me. I also realized this obsession won’t go anywhere. It will just hurt me mentally if I keep doing this. I also don’t want to have another crime on my criminal record. My plan to tackle her at prom won’t happen. Ever since I began training at this martial arts club, I’ve made friends and gained the respect of alot of people. I’m slowly rebuilding my reputation after the dumb shit I did in high school. I don’t know why I’m so obsessed with her. It might be due to my autism. I also have OCD which could be the reason why I get fixated on people. There are plenty of girls that are way prettier than her. My goal is to find a girlfriend who is hotter than her. And then I will make my oneitis jealous. I will make her regret that she rejected me. That’s the best revenge I can get. Although I will still probably get jealous when she gets a boyfriend and loses her virginity to him. I’m not gonna lie. But who cares. I will find a hotter girlfriend than her. Do I regret singing for her? Kinda. If I hadn’t sung for her, and not been so desperate during our talking phase, I might’ve actually had a chance to date her. But due to my autism I made too many mistakes. At one point I triple messaged her out of desperation. Had I just acted normally, my chances would have been higher. Even if I didn’t get a date with her, we still could’ve been friends atleast. If I didn’t sing for her. And who knows, maybe we could’ve met on a dating app in the future? Even if she wasn’t interested in me at the time, there is a chance that she could’ve developed an interest in the future. But I fucked up badly. Now I’m just a bad memory in her mind. If I could’ve gone back in time, I would’ve not been so desperate during our talking phase. I would’ve acted normally and not make it obvious that I was interested in her.
To summarize everything: I’ve decided to finally let go of my oneitis because it’s not healthy for my mind and I also don’t want to get charged with a crime. I also regret singing to her. Because if I hadn’t sung for her, we could’ve been friends. I fucked up badly.
To summarize everything: I’ve decided to finally let go of my oneitis because it’s not healthy for my mind and I also don’t want to get charged with a crime. I also regret singing to her. Because if I hadn’t sung for her, we could’ve been friends. I fucked up badly.
