
Deleted member 7448
Name is Abdu, live in Laos, born on 24.08.1992.
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I've made several posts about this, but I'm finally cured. Some backstory: I've pirated games all my life (third world country). But, for quite a while now I've had this strong desire to actually own the games on Steam. Idk why, can't explain it, but it felt so much more satisfying to actually own it. Of course I'm way too frugal to spend my money on games I can just pirate, so I ended up agonizing over it a lot.
But I'm finally cured. What finally did it was actually playing a game I actually owned for quite a while. All of a sudden, what my mind was craving about owning a game seemed irrelevant and meaningless. I felt the same lack of happiness and fun and excitement when owning a game as when pirating it. Suddenly, all the features of owning it like achievements, which seemed so important to me when I was just pirating it, and other features, they were all meaningless and so fucking pointless.
So yeah, I'll just pirate as I always did from now on. Although I probably will stop playing games altogether, I haven't actually enjoyed a game in many years, but I end up wasting hours every day searching for a game to play, installing one every once in a while and just uninstalling cause I don't find any fun in it. But I still waste time searching every day, as if I'll find the perfect game one day, when in fact I've seen them all by now.
But I'm finally cured. What finally did it was actually playing a game I actually owned for quite a while. All of a sudden, what my mind was craving about owning a game seemed irrelevant and meaningless. I felt the same lack of happiness and fun and excitement when owning a game as when pirating it. Suddenly, all the features of owning it like achievements, which seemed so important to me when I was just pirating it, and other features, they were all meaningless and so fucking pointless.
So yeah, I'll just pirate as I always did from now on. Although I probably will stop playing games altogether, I haven't actually enjoyed a game in many years, but I end up wasting hours every day searching for a game to play, installing one every once in a while and just uninstalling cause I don't find any fun in it. But I still waste time searching every day, as if I'll find the perfect game one day, when in fact I've seen them all by now.