Mentalcel here, I have a rather severe Bipolar Disorder (type 2) with Persistent Depression, beyond severe Social Anxiety, mild OCD, traits from both Antisocial Personality Disorder and Borderline Personality Disorder [ALL repeatedly diagnosed]. Though not official, I might also have Vulnerable Narcissism. I have cripplingly high Neuroticism with mid-high Openness and low Extroversion, so I experience negative emotions intensely and rarely feel positive emotions. Although at times I act out 'autistic', I have never been diagnosed with medical autism; I identify much more with ADHD.
Looks wise, I have a midtier normie face with high tier potential and a decent height (5'11); yet I'm a sexless, hugless, kissless, handholdless friendless virgin at 25. I have only 1 (male) best friend and completely dysfunctional social life beyond that, mostly because of my reserved and shy, yet very disagreeable and erratically emotional nature. I tried implicitly asking out girls few times, but it always went beyond horrible and I got severely humiliated once. Even my female psychiatrist advises against trying to pursue girls knowing I'll almost always get rejected and that could accelerate my road to insanity and ERmaxxing; and instead work on graduating so I can get an arranged marriage. I have a long history of violence and abuse (both ways), although my shy and awkward nature stops me from lashing out at strangers or people I barely know.
I do not consider myself a truecel, but knowing I'll NEVER be a neurotypical makes my suffering unbearable.
Looks wise, I have a midtier normie face with high tier potential and a decent height (5'11); yet I'm a sexless, hugless, kissless, handholdless friendless virgin at 25. I have only 1 (male) best friend and completely dysfunctional social life beyond that, mostly because of my reserved and shy, yet very disagreeable and erratically emotional nature. I tried implicitly asking out girls few times, but it always went beyond horrible and I got severely humiliated once. Even my female psychiatrist advises against trying to pursue girls knowing I'll almost always get rejected and that could accelerate my road to insanity and ERmaxxing; and instead work on graduating so I can get an arranged marriage. I have a long history of violence and abuse (both ways), although my shy and awkward nature stops me from lashing out at strangers or people I barely know.
I do not consider myself a truecel, but knowing I'll NEVER be a neurotypical makes my suffering unbearable.
