BlaKdaGGeRz said:
dude u fell in "love" with retarded chicks? Srsly? If u still fall in "love" u haven't taken enough blackpills..... how can I trust your videos now?
Slightly hyperbolic, but I have really enjoyed talking to her, especially since there was 0 pressure to keep her interested. The only struggle was finding candid pics to send to her. Living vicariously through Chad added a new dimension to my life other than work, gym, depression and bed.
She is saying stuff like: "You'll get to see my body tomorrow".
This is legit suicidefuel. I think I took this too far. I should have stopped at Tinder and left out the whatsapp private chat shit. It's my friend's fault. He is bluepilled, even after I showed him the Tinder screenshots. He said: "If Chad/looks matter so much, get nudes". The good news is the nudes have started to sway him a little but in the crossfire, I've had my soul shot up.
The first girl pictured is going back to uni miles away this weekend but wants "me" to visit and says it will be worth my while.
I need to rope for real. I can't unsee the shit I've seen. I should have stayed redpilled, that was bad enough. The black-pill is too brutal. Looks are ALL I THINK ABOUT. Every interaction I'm in or see, I assess it from a blackpilled viewpoint: "He has a recessed chin...", "She smiled while talking to him cuz he's a 6+", "all of those guys are NW1", etc.
I think I BROKE myself.
I dunno how to ghost this girl. I would have felt better doing this if she personally had rejected me in the past. I'm a mixture of emotions.