I know no female would ever want to be my companion and at the age of 30 it’s kinda impossible to make new friends (even if I did they’d be a bunch of subhuman losers like me so what’s the point JFL). So I won’t take any action to escape this state of life. But that kind of empty loneliness is haunting me chronically and making me suicidal. When I go to the grocery store and see attractive young people who have friends or partners the depression gets 10x worse. I can’t help but imagine how much my life would be different if a few mm of bones had grown correctly 
