SuicideFuel Feeling a lot of anger and sadness right now

[AutismKing]

I usually am not angry but today is one of those days where everything piled up and I suddenly became very angry at everything. This is certainly a common state of mind for people in my situation.

There is now way this is real.
There is no way I am living this life.
There is no way this is it for me.
There is no way all of the things that happened up to this point actually happened.
There is no way this life is real and not some sick dream.

Derealization is what they call it.

I fall into this deep victim mentality. I feel like so much has been taken for me. I was such a stupid kid. And to think this disease also robbed me of so much. And no meds help me fix my broken brain. There is no fixing it. Only think about roping.

There is no way normal people live like this. There is no way. Look at them, look at their smiles, their normie chatter with beautiful boys and girls. There is no way they've seen the horrors that I have. There is no way they carry so much pain and bitterness inside their chests. There is no way they have this horrible backstory to their lives that keeps haunting them indefinitely. There is no way they suffered this much for things largely out of one's control and are now trying to cope with it, but the thoughts don't stop.

There is no way this is real. I can't stand this anymore. I just want to lose consciousness right now and wait for it to pass. I can't endure this hell for an entire life

 

[FoidsEnshittifyAll]

you will realise it is what it is. acceptance is the hardest phase (or so normies say...).

 

[Based_Catcel]

Erm, the world doesn't owe you happiness inkwell - some ITfag

 

[AutismKing]

Erm, the world doesn't owe you happiness inkwell - some ITfag

 

[Based_Catcel]

Yea, fuck them, they are pieces of shit

 

[Meditation X]

An indescribable hatred for the universe and life is always there.

 

[soft]

 

[IncelPasha]

i had this for few weeks it was horrible good luck bro

 

[AutismKing]

Just kill some foids bro, and rape their dead bodies

Okay Glowie

i had this for few weeks it was horrible good luck bro

Thx
These feelings always come back. They will always come back as a part of inceldom itself.

 

[truemoney537]

how'd you get derealization

 

[NepNep]

Erm, the world doesn't owe you happiness inkwell - some ITfag

I've always wondered that If i ain't alive to experience happiness then what the fuck am i even for here?

 

[UnluckyPrimate]

I've always wondered that If i ain't alive to experience happiness then what the fuck am i even for here?

To abide by the values that are raped onto you by culture and your parents. Fuck breeders.

 

[NepNep]

To abide by the values that are raped onto you by culture and your parents. Fuck breeders.

Life just seems like a big scam once you take off the mask, doesn't it?

 

[UnluckyPrimate]

Life just seems like a big scam once you take off the mask, doesn't it?

Yeah I’m just done with it all, at least I have like a year left.

 

[tired as fuck]

I usually am not angry but today is one of those days where everything piled up and I suddenly became very angry at everything. This is certainly a common state of mind for people in my situation.

There is now way this is real.
There is no way I am living this life.
There is no way this is it for me.
There is no way all of the things that happened up to this point actually happened.
There is no way this life is real and not some sick dream.

Derealization is what they call it.

I fall into this deep victim mentality. I feel like so much has been taken for me. I was such a stupid kid. And to think this disease also robbed me of so much. And no meds help me fix my broken brain. There is no fixing it. Only think about roping.

There is no way normal people live like this. There is no way. Look at them, look at their smiles, their normie chatter with beautiful boys and girls. There is no way they've seen the horrors that I have. There is no way they carry so much pain and bitterness inside their chests. There is no way they have this horrible backstory to their lives that keeps haunting them indefinitely. There is no way they suffered this much for things largely out of one's control and are now trying to cope with it, but the thoughts don't stop.

There is no way this is real. I can't stand this anymore. I just want to lose consciousness right now and wait for it to pass. I can't endure this hell for an entire life

A lot of people mask their true selves or their actual feelings in order to be accepted into society. Sucks to think about but it be this way. I used to mask too, until I had a breakdown and then just couldn't anymore. Cut off all my friends (they weren't really that interested in me anyway) and toxic family and it's been a little bit better though the thoughts in my head aren't comforting. But such is life, in my opinion, not that great of a ride for anyone. Happiness is a transient state, one cannot be constantly happy, it's pointless to pursue constant happiness. At most what we get is ataraxia but soyciety will tell you that it's pathological because some faggots said so on TikTok or the DSM (Jewish machinations). Best we can do is fight against the bad thoughts and live a life of cope. Resentfulness and spite and jealousy will only make it worse, that's what I think anyways... One thing is a statement about it, one thing is to harbour feelings that only contribute to life's wicked loop.

At least we have this forum to vent in, when it gets too tough, otherwise I'm sure we'd see many more peeps go ER.

 

[Hitler]

A lot of people mask their true selves or their actual feelings in order to be accepted into society. Sucks to think about but it be this way. I used to mask too, until I had a breakdown and then just couldn't anymore. Cut off all my friends (they weren't really that interested in me anyway) and toxic family and it's been a little bit better though the thoughts in my head aren't comforting. But such is life, in my opinion, not that great of a ride for anyone. Happiness is a transient state, one cannot be constantly happy, it's pointless to pursue constant happiness. At most what we get is ataraxia but soyciety will tell you that it's pathological because some faggots said so on TikTok or the DSM (Jewish machinations). Best we can do is fight against the bad thoughts and live a life of cope. Resentfulness and spite and jealousy will only make it worse, that's what I think anyways... One thing is a statement about it, one thing is to harbour feelings that only contribute to life's wicked loop.

At least we have this forum to vent in, when it gets too tough, otherwise I'm sure we'd see many more peeps go ER.

you mentioned that life is not a great ride for anyone, i'd disagree. Most women in the west live life on easy mode, they get everything given to them on a silver platter, never do they have to worry about their survival because its guaranteed for them. Theres a reason why men kill themselves at a higher rate even though we are mentally and physically stronger than women.

Men in the UK almost never get housing if they go homeless but a woman would instantly get it. Also the reason most trans people are men transitioning to a woman because life is simply easier as a woman. Women get everything paid for by simps when they go on holiday. Theres hundreds of reasons why women have it million times easier than men in the west.

 

[tired as fuck]

Theres a reason why men kill themselves at a higher rate even though we are mentally and physically stronger than women.

Women attempt more than men but majority uses less lethal methods than men, generally. That is why. That is the raw statistic.

Also the reason most trans people are men transitioning to a woman because life is simply easier as a woman.

F2M transitioning is frowned upon by the same movement that pushes M2F transitioning on children. Psychiatrists are by and large indoctrinated cattle that pushes a political agenda and lives on the lives of gullible people fucked by the system. Despite the extremely low incidence of gender dysphoria (assuming it actually exists because psychiatry is not a science), there is a tendency to hyper-pathologize and diagnose and go through with treatments that are irreversibile but sold as reversible. I'd argue that these individuals are carrying out radical feminist propaganda mixed in with gender identification bullshit so that even males that "transition" are regarded as females just like biological females so they don't have a guilty conscience nor the most miniscule shrivel of doubt.

Theres hundreds of reasons why women have it million times easier than men in the west.

Having it easier doesn't preclude an individual from experiencing suffering. Aristocrats had it easier in the past but that doesn't mean they didn't have their share of problems. And imo, arguing about who's suffering more isn't particularly interesting because, taken to its logical conclusion, it invalidates suffering. Stop caring about what others think, do or feel and maybe you'll be a little closer to finding peace.

 

[Hitler]

Women attempt more than men but majority uses less lethal methods than men, generally. That is why. That is the raw statistic.



F2M transitioning is frowned upon by the same movement that pushes M2F transitioning on children. Psychiatrists are by and large indoctrinated cattle that pushes a political agenda and lives on the lives of gullible people fucked by the system. Despite the extremely low incidence of gender dysphoria (assuming it actually exists because psychiatry is not a science), there is a tendency to hyper-pathologize and diagnose and go through with treatments that are irreversibile but sold as reversible. I'd argue that these individuals are carrying out radical feminist propaganda mixed in with gender identification bullshit so that even males that "transition" are regarded as females just like biological females so they don't have a guilty conscience nor the most miniscule shrivel of doubt.



Having it easier doesn't preclude an individual from experiencing suffering. Aristocrats had it easier in the past but that doesn't mean they didn't have their share of problems. And imo, arguing about who's suffering more isn't particularly interesting because, taken to its logical conclusion, it invalidates suffering. Stop caring about what others think, do or feel and maybe you'll be a little closer to finding peace.

bro is on an incel forum trynna argue against the fact women have it easier lol, spewing a bunch of lies as well, there isnt a single country on earth where women attempt suicide more than men, unless maybe Afghanistan. F2M transitioning isnt frowned upon more than M2F. And its common knowledge that women have it easier than men not sure why you're arguing against it. You're a straight dumbass, you're the "wheres my hug at?" typpa incel lmao, dumb nigga

 

[Dead End]

Women attempt more than men but majority uses less lethal methods than men, generally. That is why. That is the raw statistic.

Not necessarily true despite what data shows. There is no way to know for sure the actual rates of suicide attempts for either gender. The data is based on what is officially recorded, but that doesn't necessarily reflect reality. For men, it is very likely that both suicide attempts and depression are severely underreported compared to women. I would also argue that suicide rates are a far better indicator of actual suicidal intent in a population, as many reported "suicide attempts" have little to no genuine suicidal motivation behind them and are rather just cries for help or attention seeking. Legitimate and well thought out suicide attempts don't commonly fail.

 

[tired as fuck]

Not necessarily true despite what data shows. There is no way to know for sure the actual rates of suicide attempts for either gender. The data is based on what is officially recorded, but that doesn't necessarily reflect reality. For men, it is very likely that both suicide attempts and depression are severely underreported compared to women. I would also argue that suicide rates are a far better indicator of actual suicidal intent in a population, as many reported "suicide attempts" have little to no genuine suicidal motivation behind them and are rather just cries for help or attention seeking. Legitimate and well thought out suicide attempts don't commonly fail.

I also tend to be more of a skeptic but I can't infer a conclusion from sets of data that I don't have available. In statistics you really derive conclusions from data you have.

I don't think you can demonstrate intent in suicide attempts, whether they're successful or not. It seems to be a tautological kind of argument, since you define suicidal attempts to be successful generally if intent is there, but intent can't be inferred a priori so it's an endless loop of "okay let's see if you really want to die". I treat suicide attempts as suicide attempts, and deaths by suicide as deaths by suicide. Anecdotal evidence seems to suggest that people need not necessarily have planned it out in detail but at times, in a rush of emotions, they commit the act. But one cannot base a judgement solely on anecdotal evidence.

bro is on an incel forum trynna argue against the fact women have it easier lol, spewing a bunch of lies as well, there isnt a single country on earth where women attempt suicide more than men, unless maybe Afghanistan. F2M transitioning isnt frowned upon more than M2F. And its common knowledge that women have it easier than men not sure why you're arguing against it. You're a straight dumbass, you're the "wheres my hug at?" typpa incel lmao, dumb nigga

You attribute to me words that I have never wrote... Perhaps you should pick up a book sometimes, it would benefit you. I merely try to not be consumed by emotions when I analyze a statement/argument, I guess cattle guided by emotions like you cannot comprehend it though. Pity.

 

[AutismKing]

A lot of people mask their true selves or their actual feelings in order to be accepted into society. Sucks to think about but it be this way. I used to mask too, until I had a breakdown and then just couldn't anymore. Cut off all my friends (they weren't really that interested in me anyway) and toxic family and it's been a little bit better though the thoughts in my head aren't comforting. But such is life, in my opinion, not that great of a ride for anyone. Happiness is a transient state, one cannot be constantly happy, it's pointless to pursue constant happiness. At most what we get is ataraxia but soyciety will tell you that it's pathological because some faggots said so on TikTok or the DSM (Jewish machinations). Best we can do is fight against the bad thoughts and live a life of cope. Resentfulness and spite and jealousy will only make it worse, that's what I think anyways... One thing is a statement about it, one thing is to harbour feelings that only contribute to life's wicked loop.

At least we have this forum to vent in, when it gets too tough, otherwise I'm sure we'd see many more peeps go ER.

Yeah, it sucks you went through all of that. Life really is a scam for men like us.
Masking is a horrible thing to do. You really just act to try to fit in even if it isnt really your thing. People just have it so much easier. Just seeing people out there living their lives is suifuel. It really is a horrible feeling.
Wish I was Chad and didnt have to go through any of that

 

[AutismKing]

bro is on an incel forum trynna argue against the fact women have it easier lol, spewing a bunch of lies as well, there isnt a single country on earth where women attempt suicide more than men, unless maybe Afghanistan. F2M transitioning isnt frowned upon more than M2F. And its common knowledge that women have it easier than men not sure why you're arguing against it. You're a straight dumbass, you're the "wheres my hug at?" typpa incel lmao, dumb nigga

Okay "Hitler"

 

[Pikacel]

Yeah, it sucks you went through all of that. Life really is a scam for men like us.
Masking is a horrible thing to do. You really just act to try to fit in even if it isnt really your thing. People just have it so much easier. Just seeing people out there living their lives is suifuel. It really is a horrible feeling.
Wish I was Chad and didnt have to go through any of that

How do you even pull off masking

There’s so much you have to do to even look normal

 

[AutismKing]

How do you even pull off masking

There’s so much you have to do to even look normal

I mean, be very conscious of everything I do.
Body posture, gait, the way I do things.
Where I study I (pretend to) laugh at what others say even if it isnt realy genuine, I agree and engage with their conversations in the superficial normie way, dont know how to explain it.
But there's a normal social script out there and the more you try to emulate it the better.
I lost a lot of face by being a depressed weirdo in front of others. I regret that. I leave all my repetitive movements, weird singing and brooding to when I am alone at home. It is a double life in a way.

Just today talked with another incel/nearcel guy through another guy I knew. If you say any of the shit you say here in front of people irl you will come out as a weirdo and creep. That's what I mean by masking. You gotta learn what a conversation is like, but talking with incels/nearcels is easier. Talking with normies in general is very difficult for me.

 

[ogercel]

Erm, the world doesn't owe you happiness inkwell - some ITfag