Serious Father forces me to do "exposure therapy" (he's not ugly, I'm deformed)

[The Wolf]

I'm 30 soon, I live at home. I am autistic (diagnosed several times) but teachers and parents guessed it too. I am about a 1.5/10 in looks. My head shape is very strange, I'm badly asymmetric, and have strange proportions/features. I have severe social anxiety, I can barely go outside let alone without a hat.

My father now forces me to do exposure therapy as I need to "go outside when you have a job." He is 6'3. My mom is 5'5", I am 5'4". I have several diseases, some of them "unknown" by the doctors. It was just bad luck, like someone getting Trisomy 21 is bad luck. Without some of these diseases I could have been 6'1 or so, and maybe a HTN or chadlite. I'd look COMPLETELY different then. I'd have a completely different head and face. He's so unfair and idiotic.

But every time I do this therapy, my anxiety just compounds. Today too, I had to go to the supermarket with him, I see people looking at me weirdly or a young man telling his friend "look at that guy" and laughs. Everywhere I go, some form of this happens -- men, women, old, young, attractive, ugly people do it. I don't understand why they can't just keep their thoughts to themselves. They never say anything to me directly though, maybe then I could react appropriately.

Stupid "exposure therapy." In my opinion, I should be deemed "unfit for work" and get a pension. I have treatment-resistant depression and insomnia. People make fun of me, kids and adults alike.

 

[Caichan]

explain to him that he isn’t helping

 

[Deleted Member 8090]

Stupid "exposure therapy." In my opinion, I should be deemed "unfit for work" and get a pension. I have treatment-resistant depression and insomnia. People make fun of me, kids and adults alike.

You can't get any sort of benefits with what you have?

 

[The Wolf]

explain to him that he isn’t helping

I did but he doesn't want to hear it. He says I have to learn because of "job." He also either blatantly ignores when people react to me that way, or he's oblivious to specific situations.

 

[The Wolf]

You can't get any sort of benefits with what you have?

Not directly, as the social security organization hasn't deemed me "disabled." I can walk, drive, I even had a job once (and will need to start one soon). The main problem is my skull and face.
If I cannot find a job in the future, they will organize one for me. That's all.

 

[Barlog]

Very sad to hear

 

[Max Doltman]

next step by father locking you out

 

[BasedGoyslopReviews]

Brutal truecel shit. Dont even have any advice to give. Its unfairly fucked.

 

[nazianime]

I often hear about exposure and therapy and I think it is bullshit. It’s like being accustomed to being ass raped. Frankly I don’t think most therapists are qualified for incel tier mental health issues because a lot of it relies on falling on social structures that incels don’t even have.

 

[The Wolf]

Brutal truecel shit. Dont even have any advice to give. Its unfairly fucked.

Yes. People are idiots and I just had complete bad luck. My sister is healthy and she's attractive. Without some of my disorders, I'd probably be too. Surgery is not possible btw, I've seen six plastic surgeons (some of them famous) in 2 countries over the last 7 years.

 

[The Wolf]

I often hear about exposure and therapy and I think it is bullshit. It’s like being accustomed to being ass raped. Frankly I don’t think most therapists are qualified for incel tier mental health issues because a lot of it relies on falling on social structures that incels don’t even have.

Correct. For some it might work but for many with social anxiety it doesn't. Especially those who have it due to looks. And yes therapists aren't qualified for it.

 

[8CbZA-kHFu6pFgE*]

Exposure therapy is cope. More often than not it just worsens the symptoms

 

[The Wolf]

Exposure therapy is cope. More often than not it just worsens the symptoms

Exactly. My parents especially father, don't care. I think they just want me to get used to all the treatment I get. It's doubtful I can get a fully remote job.

 

[FrenchcelNeverbegan]

Very sad to hear

 

[sk.feelsdevil]

You have to be the truest trucel on this forum. I do not know what advice to give you as my face is not as deformed as yours, neither is my body. I see a lot of troons wearing hats and like FFP2 masks still to hide their male features and "pass" better. Perhaps this would work for you as well, perhaps not idk what you look like but consider a mask.

The shit your father puts you through is so fucking bruutal though. I am sorry. Hope that you will cope out of the trauma.

 

[Pancakecel]

I used to try that technique on myself, when I'd force myself to go for walks, either in my neighborhood, or through the busy town centre.

Having to see others react negatively to you, every time you leave the house just chips away at you. Exposing myself to that over and over again did not make me feel any better, in fact it just damaged me more.

I don't know what to advise you tbh, if you absolutely have to do this then wear earphones and listen to something loud, whilst you are outside. It will help if only a little.

 

[Rapistcel]

I'm 30 soon, I live at home. I am autistic (diagnosed several times) but teachers and parents guessed it too. I am about a 1.5/10 in looks. My head shape is very strange, I'm badly asymmetric, and have strange proportions/features. I have severe social anxiety, I can barely go outside let alone without a hat.

My father now forces me to do exposure therapy as I need to "go outside when you have a job." He is 6'3. My mom is 5'5", I am 5'4". I have several diseases, some of them "unknown" by the doctors. It was just bad luck, like someone getting Trisomy 21 is bad luck. Without some of these diseases I could have been 6'1 or so, and maybe a HTN or chadlite. I'd look COMPLETELY different then. I'd have a completely different head and face. He's so unfair and idiotic.

But every time I do this therapy, my anxiety just compounds. Today too, I had to go to the supermarket with him, I see people looking at me weirdly or a young man telling his friend "look at that guy" and laughs. Everywhere I go, some form of this happens -- men, women, old, young, attractive, ugly people do it. I don't understand why they can't just keep their thoughts to themselves. They never say anything to me directly though, maybe then I could react appropriately.

Stupid "exposure therapy." In my opinion, I should be deemed "unfit for work" and get a pension. I have treatment-resistant depression and insomnia. People make fun of me, kids and adults alike.

Probably the most brutal life of all the users in the forum I know.
I think you should avoid leaving your house all you can

 

[The Wolf]

I used to try that technique on myself, when I'd force myself to go for walks, either in my neighborhood, or through the busy town centre.

Having to see others react negatively to you, every time you leave the house just chips away at you. Exposing myself to that over and over again did not make me feel any better, in fact it just damaged me more.

Good points.

I don't know what to advise you tbh, if you absolutely have to do this then wear earphones and listen to something loud, whilst you are outside. It will help if only a little.

When I go alone I do wear headphones, but once again, I can't find them. It always happens to me. I lose stuff. If I'm with my mum or dad, I can't have them in. I once did and they got mad. But it does help me when I go somewhere alone.

 

[retributor]

Not directly, as the social security organization hasn't deemed me "disabled." I can walk, drive, I even had a job once (and will need to start one soon).

This is why you should never jobmaxx and just get on NEETbuxx & assisted housing as soon as you turn 18. Brutal. Sorry to hear.

 

[Jestermaxxest]

Sorry nigg. Wish you somehow cope with that. I would give u a hug