For the past two weeks my parents have been pushing me to apply for a new license since Im 21. This is obviously a bad idea given my condition and Ive tried explaining this to them but today my dad literally came home from work, forced me out of my bed and dropped me off at my local RMV to apply for a new license (even though my under 21 one is still good for another 2 years)
I can honestly cope with being oldcel and having a normal license but the worst part for me is always getting my picture taken, I dread it since I know I will always look bad and you guessed it, that was also the case today
I TRIED EVERYTHING IN MY POWER TO LOOK GOOD, but being a sub4 and now oldcel I still ended up looking like shit and Im now extremely depressed about it. When you have a convex face like me with a receded chin, NCT and an overprojected bulbous nose its impossible to look good. I tried every trick in the book to look at least somewhat reasonable. I tried clenching my jaw to make my jawline look at least somewhat more angular but it was no good. Tilting my head up to make my jaw and chin protrude more made my NCT look 10 times worse. Tilting my head down to make my NCT look neutral made my jaw look weird and my midface long. I just couldnt get a good picture and I was literally helpless about my other flaws such as big crooked nose, asymmetric mouth, eyes and jaw, NW2 hairline, long philtrum and general lack of bone mass, you get the idea.
It didnt help that the RMV worker servicing me was an absolute pushy dickhead and was getting annoyed with me having him take multiple pictures. Now ill admit I was taking my time but it was for a good reason. In the end I had to admit defeat and settle for the least shitty picture in which all of my flaws are clearly visible and my proportions look way off.
I am legit so upset and just feel like crying right now, I am stuck with this license for who knows how many years now and I dont look good in it at all.
If I ever get pulled over now the cop will probably fine me the highest amount possible possible because when he looks me up instead of my 16 year old low T cute self looking back at him it will be this fucking ugly half decomposed corpse.
I will never be able to be proud of my license and feel that high when people ask me to see it and tell me that I look good in the picture.
I dont know how to cope with this, I hate my life so much right now. I hope I die in my sleep tonight.
I can honestly cope with being oldcel and having a normal license but the worst part for me is always getting my picture taken, I dread it since I know I will always look bad and you guessed it, that was also the case today
I TRIED EVERYTHING IN MY POWER TO LOOK GOOD, but being a sub4 and now oldcel I still ended up looking like shit and Im now extremely depressed about it. When you have a convex face like me with a receded chin, NCT and an overprojected bulbous nose its impossible to look good. I tried every trick in the book to look at least somewhat reasonable. I tried clenching my jaw to make my jawline look at least somewhat more angular but it was no good. Tilting my head up to make my jaw and chin protrude more made my NCT look 10 times worse. Tilting my head down to make my NCT look neutral made my jaw look weird and my midface long. I just couldnt get a good picture and I was literally helpless about my other flaws such as big crooked nose, asymmetric mouth, eyes and jaw, NW2 hairline, long philtrum and general lack of bone mass, you get the idea.
It didnt help that the RMV worker servicing me was an absolute pushy dickhead and was getting annoyed with me having him take multiple pictures. Now ill admit I was taking my time but it was for a good reason. In the end I had to admit defeat and settle for the least shitty picture in which all of my flaws are clearly visible and my proportions look way off.
I am legit so upset and just feel like crying right now, I am stuck with this license for who knows how many years now and I dont look good in it at all.
If I ever get pulled over now the cop will probably fine me the highest amount possible possible because when he looks me up instead of my 16 year old low T cute self looking back at him it will be this fucking ugly half decomposed corpse.
I will never be able to be proud of my license and feel that high when people ask me to see it and tell me that I look good in the picture.
I dont know how to cope with this, I hate my life so much right now. I hope I die in my sleep tonight.
