I am unlovable unfuckable miserable and useless my brain wiring has rendered me completely unfit for society I do not fit in I do not connect with people I do not feel love or friendship or connection I am a walking chameleon I put on a fake persona to get people to like me to seem normal but inside I feel nothing I am completely hollow whatever personality I every thought I had has been completely evaporated I live day by day in complete numbness or dread, when I think about my complete and utter failure in the social and dating scene I think about suicide, I think about suicide every single day I am waiting for someone who will never come I am waiting for something in life which will never come I am waiting to feel happy and fulfilled and feel like a person but alas it will never arise,I will continue to live my days and years getting by, being invisible, being unfuckable, unlovable, having accomplished nothing. My death will be forgotten quickly and I will have left no impact on this planet, my life is a complete joke this existence is a cruel joke there is nothing in this life worth living for I am a complete failure and no amount of generic advice will fix this, I will never find love i will never feel fully connected to someone platonically or romantically, no one has ever understood what it's been like to be me, not even my own parents, who i can thank for being the miserable useless sod I am
