Lv99_BixNood
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View: https://old.reddit.com/r/TwoXChromosomes/comments/1d4j8hw/exhusband_is_becoming_a_passport_bro_i_feel_ugly/
Basically the title. I was always the higher income earner and he resented me for that. Once I got mid-30s he decided to divorce me (long story), take me for 1/2 of everything and travel to the Philippines and India. He never watched porn until before divorcing me. I found his porn history and it featured mostly young skinny women from third world countries. BARF. This included videos of defloration, content that I never knew he could enjoy. That was not who I married.
I think he craves a woman who he can dominate and impress with his income and big boy job. I was his equal, but he said I emasculated him. I did not ever want him to feel that way, but I did.
Is this what men really want? I will never be that skinny/innocent/young again nor will I likely marry a man richer than me (or any man). If men could choose, why would they want a tired single mom with has diastis recti from 3 kids? Will I ever find love again? I feel young still at 36. I AM young. But do any men even want women like me? Yes, I'm in therapy, but this is causing me a lot of stress. He gets to live some fantasy life and I get...someone...maybe?
EDIT: Just realized his porn history is probably what resparked my restricted eating. I want to be super skinny again, but I just look gaunt.
I hate geomaxxers but this is fucking hilarious