J
I'm so despondent about everything. Everything I try goes totally wrong. There's no escape from this hole here. I feel drained. So far, I still haven't found a real purpose in life. Sometimes, I'm afraid to get out of bed in the morning. There's nothing to get up for.
Now it is a stage in my life where everyone has either found something and are pursuing it etc or are just naturally gifted and can pursue mostly whatever they please as it will work out for them. But for some reason when I pursue something I actually have interest in I hit a complete wall, something I always dreamed of climbing over but could never due to sheer predeterminism and brain capacity. This has been the same my whole life I really haven't moved an inch in physical or mental skill in 8 years it's been almost the exact same the only thing I have is little experience and knowledge which is essentially totally useless when you have 0 skill in the first place what so ever.
The fact that this fact will probably never change due to just my genetics being that shit is I guess is the main reason to neet for the rest of my life. I will never be able to compete with chad or high iq nerds I will never be able to fulfill all my desires and wants especially without a loving partner and sex. This habit doesn't seem to want to change and I don't see why it would ever would.
Now it is a stage in my life where everyone has either found something and are pursuing it etc or are just naturally gifted and can pursue mostly whatever they please as it will work out for them. But for some reason when I pursue something I actually have interest in I hit a complete wall, something I always dreamed of climbing over but could never due to sheer predeterminism and brain capacity. This has been the same my whole life I really haven't moved an inch in physical or mental skill in 8 years it's been almost the exact same the only thing I have is little experience and knowledge which is essentially totally useless when you have 0 skill in the first place what so ever.
The fact that this fact will probably never change due to just my genetics being that shit is I guess is the main reason to neet for the rest of my life. I will never be able to compete with chad or high iq nerds I will never be able to fulfill all my desires and wants especially without a loving partner and sex. This habit doesn't seem to want to change and I don't see why it would ever would.
